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my depression is there. as soon as i start reading a fun book it leaves.
love
bobby listening to music all night.

Hey Bobby

How you doing otherwise. I'm glad the reading is helping.
Keep it up. I've been gone this weekend.
So if other things were on other thread I might have miss them.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

hi bobby,
did you get any sleep today?
Music and reading are great but you need some balance and time to restore and rest. You really do need to sleep.
pick a time to go to bed. and then pick up something boring to read for a bit until you feel sleepy and lights out. of course take some klonipin 30 minutes before lights out, so it can kick in.
This is just a suggestion. I know that I have to have a routine to my sleep and just thought I would share that with you.
love bizi

I am out of control.sometimes I fall asleep at 7 and wake up a few hours later. Klonopin doesn't help me sleep. I have so many issues I have to deal with. I have IBS-c. i stopped watching the news but that doesn't seem to help. i am so dependent on robert.he will take to get the second dose. i tried with marci to walk outside with the walker. she caught me before falling three times. i will have to take a cab. robert said he will take pudge to be groomed. that is stressful. i see two of my doctors next month. i don't know if i can manage one getting there. i can't take stress. my legs hurt from yesterday. i always wake up depressed and stressed and frightened.
love
bobby

I am sorry for your worries and physical limitations. It must be scary not knowing when your legs might give out on you but you have to keep trying to walk to build up muscle strength. you have not mentioned your bike lately did you give up on that?
lots of hugs and love your way.
bizi

good suggestions. i have given up for a while. too depressed.
love
bobby

Bobby

Try putting on some music you like and biking to it. And then work your
way up on time with it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

That is an excellent suggestion !!!!
love bizi

have you tried radio garden?
I love the classical radio station at venice classical radio. There is an app for that on your cell phone. do you have a lap top? You could go there on your lap top.
radio garden is the name of the web sight.
tell me you are not interested so I won't mention it again.
I love listening to non stop classical music.
mostly not talking.
bizi
Venice Classic Radio – Radio Garden

I have been listening to it all morning. It made me sleep for 2 1/2 hours. thank you so much. Love it.
I have been too tired to ride the bike. My legs and back are still hurting from that walk with the walker. They are great suggestions. I am not disciplined and am out of control. I am pretty sure my stocks going down are adding to my depression. I turned the ac on this morning. My room was 80. eeks.
I am also trying to diet. I lost another pound.
Love
bobby

I am going to have two social workers. one is in training and with Dorot. I will speak to her on Fridays. i are really looking forward to it. I could have had another social worker but I waanted to go with her.

bobby does your doctor know about your insomnia?
bizi wish you slept better.
love bizi

he knows and has tried everything. lately I have been falling asleep early and just waking up early.
love
bobby

he knows about my always worrying and my irritability.

i had a session with the new therapist. she was lovely ,compassionate and asked great questions.

I am happy that you had a good session with your new therapist.
yea:Dancing-Chilli:!
bizi

she now know so much about me and my family in one session then my other therapist knows in all the time i have seen him.
love
bobby

Am happy for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

thank you. looking forward yo next friday.
had my second shot and so far no side effects.
love
bobby

I forget what is happening next friday?

my new therapist.

Will you see her weekly or is that every other week?
I am so glad that you like her.
bizi

weekly on the phone.

Do you face time with her. You have an I-phone right, that is a feature that is not hard to use. That is if she has an i phone as well. Maybe you are using that feature already? I face time with my mental health practitioner. She is a nurse practitioner and lets me keep my klonipin for sleep!!!!!
She said she has only seen me stable. I face time with her every 2 months.
I am not seeing my wonderful therapist now that it is a new year and I don't want to pay $98 dollars a session out of pocket. maybe I could check in with her every now and then like maybe once a month.


our new roof people have charge us an additional $1,800 for services that were supposed to be included in the original price. They did not tell us about these charges we just got a bill. grr.:mad:


sorry for high jacking your thread.
love, bizi

don't wprry. my therapists are free and I just want to use the phone althouht i have a webcam.
love
bobby

Her next meeting with the psychologist I believe.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

social worker and one in training

i feel so relieved about having had second dose. I heard on msnbc that we will have to have another one in a year or something.

good for you bobby! It takes 2 weeks to be fully protected.
bizi

that is why i scheduled two doctors' appt later
love
bobby

marci just told me that her friend had the doses and three months later she got the virus. she said she has heard of others.

yes bobby, it prevents you from having a fatal case, It makes it hard to catch also. so it is good for us to get vaccinated. Even if we get vaccinated we still have to wear masks, but not if every one there has been vaccinated, we don't have to wear masks.
Does this make any sense?
love,
bizi

i thought the vaccination would prevent getting it. guess I was wrong.
love
bobby
a lot of the country aren't vaccinated and aren't wearing masks.

i forgot none of them are 100 percent

Its still better to get it than not to get it. And we can all hope that
we will be some of the ones that wont get it. And I for one think
that having the vaccine will help. Especially since My stupid
governor is going to make the mask not mandatory soon, in about a
week. I'm still going to wear mine most of the time.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i felt a big relief after I go the second one.

yes bobby it is a big relief after getting the second vaccination.
Have you ever been tested for the virus? I was tested 2 weeks ago and was negative that is a relief because you can carry the virus for a few days with out having symptoms.
Now that we have been vaccinated it means that we will have a much bigger percentage of not getting the virus and that if we do it is only going to be relativity mild and its not going to send you to the hospital.
so I am glad that I got the vacc. There seems to be a lack of understanding with my elderly clients not wanting to get the vacc.
I don't get it.
bizi

my friend from iowa was accosted because she was wearing a mask out doors. I felt so sorry for her.
bizi

a couple of my friends aren't sure if they want to be vaccinated. they said it is too new and they want to see what happens. I told them I would rather die from the vaccine than the virus. I think a lot of trump supporters are aanti masks-a@#holes.
love
bobby

Bobby

I think that is honestly the perfect attitude to come into getting the vaccination.

And I also think your right many trumpers are anti mask. Its sad, they
aren't the ones that are in danger when they don't mask.

Donna:hug::grouphug: