FRIDAY check in
 

Hello,
It's Friday and we are waiting to hear how Nikko kept busy with her cousin in town.
'Time for people to let us know where they are and what's on their minds.

I got to stay home from work today. I relaxed and even went to the gym.http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/sports/running.gif http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/sports/barbell.gif http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/sports/barbell.gif
I am waaaaaay behind at work, but heck, relaxing was necessary for me to make it back there tomorrow.

I skipped a memorial service today. Hubby went instead.
Sunday, I go to a funeral mass at a catholic church for a different colleague. It will be tough, especially since the colleague who died was young and left at least two college aged children behind.

Mari

Awww, that's so sad about your collegue, hopefully you won't have to go to another memorial service for a long long time Mari. I understand about staying home to relax and how it's totally necessary in order to get back to the grind. You do what you know you need to and don't worry about what people think. :p

I am doing okay so far, have to go get blood drawn today for my upcoming dr appt. I really hate having to get it done but when you take a lot of medications you need to monitor your liver functions and other things. I also have to go return a pair of shoes I got my DH that were completely the wrong size. I swear they were the right size but sadly they really weren't, I don't know how I got them in place of what I thought I was getting. But then that's how it goes sometimes, you pick up one thing and are positive its what you wanted only to find later it's completely not.

Ou TV died yesterday morning and DH worked hard all day setting up a computer as a TV since we had the right video card it wasn't too hard, but he had to fiddle around with the hard drive and whatnot for hours. I am lucky he's so good with stuff like that. :) Jackie was so upset it died on us like that, so I knew we had to either get another TV or get that computer set up for us ASAP. ;)

Good for you Mari about going to the gym.
Hubby and I have been walking in our neighborhood at night after dinner in the evenings.
The weather is finally a bit cooler to allow us to enjoy the walks. IT is a good activity for us to do together.
Hubby has a gig tonight so am not sure what I will do this evening. There is a big convention this weekend called Tinsels and Treasures which is a big holiday showcase of arts, crafts and home decorations in our cajun dome. Over 150 booths are set up there. Am going with a girl friend of mine and perhaps her dausghter who is quite the shopper at age 10.
Hopefully I will be able to work in the yard as I have many weeds calling for my attention. WE have only a small chance of rain over the weekend.
There seems to be an area of sub tropical activity in the gulf so will watch for future updates.
Have ag reat weekend all!
bizi

I am not having a great week. Its been rough. Not sure what all is up.
But its just not been so good. I just hope soon to get some answers.

I have been doing what I'm supposed to, but it seems like I need to
do something else, but have no clue what. I'm really afraid I'm going
to end up more depressed if I don't get to the bottom of this soon.

I'm really worried about what is up with my son's memory and what
I'm going to do with the fact that not only does he think he has taken
his meds. But then when I go check I seem to think he has too sometimes.

Then like in this case, I was in there this morning getting my own. Just happened to double check he had taken todays. I always do. But noticed
yesterdays was in there. Both times, Oh no what happened. He told me
he took it, I even remember sending him to double check in the morning.
Because for some reason I had a feeling. And then when I went to get
mine I checked.

But for some reason half of yesterday I thought it was wednesday, and
I went through the day that way, even though I had physical therapy.
And knew it was on Thursday and I went. But later in the day I realized
I'd gone through the day thinking it was Wednesday, it just dawned on
me about time I should have been heading home, that I had almost
two more hours because it wasn't wednesday but thursday and bowling
day for Derrick, so he wouldn't be home till later.

So I'm in trouble and don't know what to do. I was on auto pilot yesterday
morning. I just went with what my night before told me was my schedule.

So whether I knew it was thursday or not, is a toss up for PT, because I just
knew I was supposed to go, it never entered my head of the day.

Its really going to be a problem. If something doesn't change.

DOnna

Two part,
I cancelled today's plans before I even figured out the mix-ups because
I was just that sure I needed the day home in bed. And not in the car.

I was to go listen to a reknown autism speaker. Which is really something
I was looking forward to for my job. I really needed this, its something
that is becoming more needed with the cases I get.

But I could tell I wasn't in shape to drive, or to go. And I was scared about
it.

And tomorrow I have a long day presentation, but I'm not doing most of
the presentation, or driving. My co-presenter is doing most of it.

I just have to get to her house.

Donna

I am looking for some pixie dust for Tinker bell to spread over our lives and make some better feelings. :circlelove:
I am thinking of you all that have conquest this weekend and prayer for strength.

We are going to the local fair my daughter entered her sunflower, I will post pictures when i get home tomorrow night,

Sending love.
di

Dear Donna,
I am sorry that you are having these issues.
IT must be scarey.
I sometimes go the whole day thinking it is another day too.
It is very scarey not knowing if you have taken meds or not.
I take them when I brush my teeth so twice a day I take pills.
I don't use a pill box.
THis has worked for me for years but I don't have a kid to check up on.
How old are your children?
((((HUGS))))
bizi
looking forward to your pictures Di!

Mom is coming over and we're going shopping in a few but I am so anxious about stuff I just can hardly stand it. I took some lorazepam but I am still feeling it in my stomach, not as bad as before I took it but man I am so tired of being scared all the time. I sure hope the paxil starts helping with it.

It's been a week now and I don't feel like crying all the time though I could definitely still cry. I am so scared about something that could happen, it's so terrible to feel this kind of fear all the time. It's not like I am imagining this thing I am afraid of, I'm not, we really could end up facing this horrible problem I am worried about.

I can't talk about it, but it's really draining me...I don't know how to make it go away either, it's just awful... :(

I understand about thinking you forgot to take your meds Donna, I have forgotten mine sometimes and I feel it and if it's too late to take them I just have to deal with it. Hope that things get easier for you soon. :)

Difficult funeral
 

The notice I got about the funeral had the wrong time on it.
So they started at 9:30 and I got there at 11:00 BUT they were still going strong. The church and the parking lot were packed. People were standing in the aisles.

Other people from work were there but they didn't see me because I was in the back, . . but I did talk to my student has his mother -- a best friend of the colleague.

I sobbed and came home and grouched at hubby.
I'm going to print out the ingredients to a soup and have him go buy the stuff and then make it for me while I got back to sleep. The chinese food I picked up last night is making me feel sick and bloated.

What a crappy way to start the day.
The colleague was only 38. I think she had had lupus.
She left behind a huge extended family and many friends.

Mari

Yes I have taken Wellbutrin and others before and had good results, so I expect that this will help in the long term, that is what we were replacing with paxil, the wellbutrin. :)

Sorry your notice had the wrong time on it for tha funeral, that had to have been frustrating. :(

Hi Pam,

OK, then, so Paxil is your friend :) We wait with you while it kicks in.

Hey, I'm ok about missing the most of the funeral. The music would have been too much for me to handle. As it is, I am spending the rest of the day recovering.

Mari

I hope you feel better soon Mari, it's hard to recover from being out in a crowd sometimes, it takes me a few hours to relax and recover from these shopping trips with Mom. I know she's the same way only it's pain she needs to recover from. It just stinks sometimes how trying it can be to go out in public doesn't it? :(

Okay its saturday night, and I am not a happy camper. I just don't get
what is up.

I took it easy yesterday. I stayed away from the presenter I really wanted
to see. So that I could do this training today that I really needed to
do a good job at. Well I knew from the beginning I was in trouble.

Last night wasn't going good. But I went to bed in good time. GOt a good
nights sleep. Got up left at a early enough time, to meet my co-presenter
this morning. She was doing most of the presenting.

Made sure what I was supposed to have was in the car last night. Then got lost when going to her house this morning. Just couldn't locate the right
drive. Ugh.

Then we got to the church. And it all started I started having issues
with my dizziness, but it got better and I thought, okay I'll make sure I drink
plenty of water. And they had plenty of other stuff that was healthy so
I could drink that too.

And they had lunch for us. And my part wasn't till after lunch. But then
I got way to dizzy and started having problems, that I went away.

But then for some reason it got really bad, I ended up, having problems, with the power point and the screens and I've got to figure out if its all connected to my old problem or my new one now.

So know I've embarrassed myself in a crowd, I had to leave the group.
And it didn't look like I was going to make it without passing out.

I'm really getting scared and I don't have a clue what to do.

I need some answers, but how to go about geting thiem

No way, but it took about a hour and I return to a good way.

But it was a while and it was back and forth. ANd I always
now to pull over if I get bad again.

BUt I need to stop this. I'm done venting.

Donna

Mari - thanks for doing the weekend check in! I was really busy this week, going here and there with my cousin.

I miss her so much already. I just live too far away from everyone, friends, family on the East Coast, hope to move to Florida where I will be closer.

Since everyone lives in the Northeast.

Nikko:hug:

Dear Donna,

The symptoms you describe sound confusing.
I hope that you get things settled. People are usually forgiving about technical difficulties for a presentation. Even though you felt embarrassed, you had nothing to be embarrassed about.

But feeling like you are going to pass out and all that is weird.
Have the docs giving you any coping mechanisms or anything to do when that feeling and the other physical ones you describe come up?

mari

Just to take deep breaths, or to remember to breath.

This one is from my physical therapist assistant. But it doesn't work
when I'm this far gone, and I am already breathing so its hard to do
this.

I just need some answers.

Donna

Dear Donna,
I jsut caught up with this thread....
I am so sorry that you are still having these issues.
Are you keeping a journal so that you can keep track of the frequency and duration of the events. and also to see if anything helps to rid you of these symptoms.
If sounds so frustrating for you and I am sorry for this.
Wish you had some better explanations...
anyone ever wonder if this might be MS?
a friend of mine had real wierd symptoms and discovered that is what she had.
hugs to you my friend
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi, Donna,
How about b12? I know...dumb question. The drs probably already checked all those things but it sounds like they should check it if they have not.
Also, I am guessing that you had thryoid and such checked.

At any rate, I can see how this is frustrating and worrisome.

Mari