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New and Overwhelmed: It'll take a few posts to bring you up to speed.
Hi there.
My name is Meghan and I've just joined this forum today. I've found my way here with a guiding light sent by DiMarie. She found me on another forum we both post on and extended her helpful hand to me and brought me here. I havent been diagnosed but I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Even right now trying to type this I'm fighting off dizziness and nauseousness from thinking about everything that has happened to me recently (and not so recently) Its going to take me a few post to get out everything so please bear with me. I'll start with my first ever panic attack. I started dating the most wonderful boy in April 07. In May 07 we went to a huge concert (kinda like Woodstock) and we were waiting in a HUGE crowd for the headlining band. Once the band came on, the crowd started swaying and I immediately couldn't breathe and I felt trapped. We got out of the crowd and to the First Aid tent and the person said that I had a panic attack. I had no idea what that was at first but after it happened I was fine. Fast forward to May of this year. The boy and I go to the concert again (its annual) and I was fine. I finish highschool and we go on a trip to Disney world with his family. The day after I get home I have graduation. I didn't have a job at the time we got back and I could see it was bothering Mike (the boyfriend). I could tell for a while he was bothered with having to pay for things for me and drive out to see me (we live an hour apart). 2 weeks after we got back from Disney, the brakes in my car were broken so I asked my mom if I could borrow her car to go see Mike. She said yes and I told her I would bring it back before she had to go to work the next morning (I was planning on leaving Mike's around 11pm). I fell asleep at Mike's and ended up leaving at 4am. As I was driving home, a deer jumped out in front of the car, and in a panic, I stepped on the gas, swerved and ended up in the woods. The car was totaled. It was the first time I had ever been in an accident and I was all alone. The few weeks after that were hard. I felt overwhelmed with no job, school in the fall, Mike seeming to be pulling away, and the car thing that I had my 1st BAD panic attack. I was rushed to the emergency room in an ambulance. Mike drove from his house to the hospital to see me to make sure I was okay. Still with no job, I would take the train to Mike's house to see him. The week before the 4th of July I spent the whole week at his house watching his dogs because his parents were camping. 4th of July weekend we met his parents to camp for the weekend. The Monday following he texted me saying he was going to come out and surprise me and come see me but he got paged to go into work so he couldnt. Between Tuesday and Friday night, I didn't see him and we talked very little. Friday night I told him I had access to my car and I was on the way to see him. He said "i dont think you should come out im hanging with keith (his best friend" but i told him I was already half way there. I get to his house and find him on the computer, and I could immediately see something was wrong. He wasn't responding like normal and he was acting like he had no idea who I was. Eventually we go into his room to go to sleep and he just starts crying and says He can't do this and it's to much. I'm sitting there tryign to tell him its okay we can do this just relax I can help you, and eventually we fall asleep. The next morning, he was going skateboarding with his friends and I usually go with them. He told me he didn't think I should go with them and I should just go home. I started getting dizzy and I started crying and on my drive home I had to pull over and I had my second panic attack landing me in the ER. Mike was hesitant to come to my side but eventually ended up at the hospital with me. Later that night he called and told me he needed space. The week following was Hell for me and then eventually he told me he was coming over to get his stuff and it was over. I was floored. I still am. I spent the next few days trying to show him this can work and it doesn't have to be like this. He says theres "certain things that cant be fixed" Tuesday after work I told him I wished I was driving out to see him and he said I could. It was the first time I had seen him since the panic attack when he told me to go home. I went there and he started curling up to me and I automatically thought he wanted to fix things. I started crying and askign him why this was happening and what was going on and all he could do was hold me and wipe my tears away. I leave the next morning and he said he was sorry for the night before. He comes over later in the day to "pick up his stuff" but he ended up falling asleep in my bed curled up next to me and he didnt bring any stuff home with him. After all that he texts me saying the past 2 nights were a mistake and that this is OVER over and he doesnt wanna patch things up and i cant convince him to or anything. I've tried to reason with him and he won't communicate. I've honestly never felt so lost in my life. He's been the constant in my life for the past year and out of no where its just gone. I feel like the ground has been pulled from beneath my feet. I know this probably sounds like First Love heart break but it's not and it makes me dizzy and nauseous when people say that. He wants me to hate him, so its easier for him to let go, but I can't he hasn't done anything to make me hate him. I wish I could just get through to him and help him. He won't tell me anything and it's messing with me. So thats update 1. Next post will be about how overwhelming everything else is and my struggle with trying to find professional help. Please don't think I'm just sitting here to vent and make everyone feel bad for me. I have issues telling people things in fear that they won't care and that they'll turn around and say "i don't want to deal with your problems I have my own" I hope this forum can help me see that people are caring and will help. -Meghan |
heres number two.
since my accident i've felt more alone then i've ever felt in my life and like i couldnt communicate to anyone therefore feeling trapped. ive tried to tell my mom to help me find a doctor (because my whole life shes taken care of that type of thing) and she keeps telling me to do it myself. the one thing i could REALLy use help for and she wont help me. i talked to my aupportive aunt and she gave me the number to her psychatrist and i called him and he returned my call but i missed it so i called again and left a message and he should get back to me monday. i also called the mental heath office for my regular doctors office (my PCP gave me the number) and they said the psychologist couldnt see me till September....after i got off the phone with them i almost had an attack because i needed help NOW and not months from now. I got in contact with the counceling office at my furture college and made an appointment but cancelled the first appointment i made because i woke up anxious and tweaking out and i didnt feel comfortable driving in that condition. im going to call them back and make an appointment but i dunno what i should do...the counceling office at school said ic ant have a regular psychologist/psychatrist and use their services but what if i dont like the psychatrist? what if the person at my PCPs referral works for me? what if I like the person at my college? another thing that makes me nervous/anxious is the whole heath insurance thing situation. i know nothing about co-pays or my coverage other than im still covered under my dads insurance cuz im a full time student, and my PCP copay is 5 dollars. my card said mental heath co pay is $10 but i have no idea whos covered or what. it makes my head spin. im worried about my mental and physical heath. im overweight for my age/size and im not trying to be like Oh im so fat and im not, my doctor is worried about my weight. im an extremely picky eater and i cant find 'healthy' foods i like. i know when i get my student ID (at orientation agu 20th which im waiting anxiously for, i feel like time is going by SO slowly) i get free range of the gym there and i cant wait. ive never ever felt motivated to work out but i REALLy want to now. but i know thats not it i need to eat right too. i need to find help with that. on the school subject im looking for a laptop because i have issues with auditory learning and in college its mostly lectures. I cant write by hand what i hear as fast as its being said, so im getting worried and anxious over starting school without a laptop to type out what i hear and missing important information cuz i cant hand write fast enough. any suggestions on healthy food and laptops would be great. I hope people from the other thread jumpt onto this one because this is the one ill be updating. |
and I found that even though its NEVER on (the long version anyway) the new Discovery Channel commercial makes me very happy and relaxed and it takes all my anxiety away.
It's the one with the cute song that's like this I love the mountains, I love the clear blue skies I love big bridges I love when great whites fly I love the whole world And all its sights and sounds Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda I love the oceans I love real dirty things I love to go fast I love Egyptian kings I love the whole world And all its craziness Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda I love tornadoes I love arachnids I love hot magma I love the giant squids I love the whole world It's such a brilliant place Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda Boom-de-yadda, boom-de-yadda |
Wow, it sounds like you've been having a rough time of it this summer. I am sure losing your boyfriend was hard, but you need to look after yourself right now. It sounds like you're doing the right things in seeking help. Panic attacks are simply awful, so are accidents, and the resulting trauma. My heart goes out to you Meghan. (((((((hugs)))))))
I am sure talking about it will help, talking makes me feel better for a little while. :) |
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Were you diagnosed as an auditory learner in high school? Do you have any paperwork for that? Your college probably has a Disabilities Office (each school calls it something else). Call the Dean of Students Office -- or whatever that office is called at your school. Or simply call that counseling office again and tell them you need to talk to them about your special situation. You can register with that office that you are an auditory learner. Then you can get permission to record lectures if you want -- that way you do not have to worry about typing every word. You might even get permission for someone else to take notes for you. Also, you can let them know that you get panic attacks. Look into the services that the school provides. You do not have to do this by yourself. The school can help you in ways that you have not considered yet. Mari |
Dear Meg,
Welcome to the forums. It sounds like you have had some stressors to deal with, but you are a strong woman and I know that you will be able to be ok through this stressful time right now. Make an appointment with a pdoc for as soon as you can...then go back to your mdoc and ask her to prescribe something to help you with your anxiety when it gets really bad. YOur regular doctor can do this temporarily until you get into see a pdoc. Do you usually get along with your parents? Still live there? Have any siblings? any pets to give and get hugs from? It sounds like you are taking all of the right steps to getting better... keep posting/talking/venting... we will listen to you. bizi |
Hi Meg,
Firt things you need to do what I am guilty of is prioritizing. Make a list of the first needs and the ones that can wait a few days. On the back of you health card is a telephone no. I found mine under mental health coverages on there. My PCP did give me the name of two doctors and they were likewise months away. But then I got a cancellation to a lady right up the road from me last month. They will ahve a list of no. If you find a community ase one you can get in sooner. See the PCP though to have input on a medication asap. If is too tough on the heart to do it alone, let the PCP help. My son needed some help asap and he went with the county system as he had no job and no health care. They went by a 0 income for him. My older daughter went there a few years ago and she had insurance. They had a doctor there she saw but worked with a therapist. On school disability. I contacted the office of vocational rehabilatation and went through an intake. I had applied for SSDI also. But voc rehab had my doctors records for treatments for disabilities like carpal tunnel and whiplash nerve issues, panic attacks and the back and knee issues. I went to the disabilites office at school and they took the doctors note for disabilities. I was accomadated with the use of a tape recorder for my lectures. I found it was better to out line notes. I had a pre print outline , the topic and sub topics. Another thing was being able to take test in the center. I could take my time or even use software to dictate. I received funds for college too....I had to report every month for a few minutes when voc rehab came on campus to check in. It may seem like some endless appointments and even some medications. But it is too hard to cope without them. finding a good one that does not tire, calms the thoughts and lets you focus is good. I also took three classes not the five full time. I am glad that I did it that way. If you take the five, try to get a job at college to help defray driving. There are a lot of them available. Take a week with school starting so soon to take care of yourself. The phone no. on the card, the disabilities office and the office of vocational rehab area enough of a start to consider. There are going to be so many guys that you will meet at school. From all over, fresh ideas and bright. Soon all this heart ache and fretting over Mike will be in the past. Sounds like he needs time and distance. No matter what you share, feel you have caring ears. Even if we don't have the answeres you have our support and thoughts to share. BIG HUGS GF Dianne :grouphug: |
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Are you asking about specific psychiatrists? If you call their office, they will tell you if they are covered by your insurance. They know. Also, your insurnace card has a 1-800 number or a web site. You can find out by using the phone or the internet to see the long list of names of people in your zipcode/ town who are covered. Mar |
Welcome Meg, I hope you find what you need here.
Take good care of yourself, take a few moments for yourself here and there to collect your thoughts and just get a couple of relaxing breaths. Especially when you feel yourself getting out of control. You are going through a real transitional period in your life and it can be very stressful. (Gee lol I am so good at giving advice lol, maybe I would do well to follow it lol.) |
PLEASE don't take this the wrong way, because the spirit I am posting this I think is a positive one.
Your heart is in the right place and it sounds like you and your friend are good people. However, it has been my experience that relationships usually go better when they start off with two people who are feeling balanced in life or are at least well on their way there. So, what might need to happen for you at this time is to start school, get yourself feeling good about school, see a physician about your anixety, consider medication if it is recommended, consider therapy if you are not doing this already...have a plan for getting the anxiety under control and being a good student. If you were more secure in your life and sure of yourself, it would be easier for you to present yourself to another person as a whole person and easier for the other person to feel secure in their relationship with you. Please keep in mind in no way to you have to be a perfect person, but simply one that is more balanced and with a clear vision of the coming months ahead of her. I agree, you will meet so many other young men at school. I would concentrate at the issues you have at hand and then look to meeting other men shortly after those things are under control or at least well on their way. If your previous relationship was meant to be...at some point, it may come back into the picture. Wishing you well. |
Hello Sparrow!
Hi Meg,
I jsut got on the computer and saw you were here today. I was reminded of you today when a sparrow came down and sat on a branch near me as I drank coffee on my deck. I was sitting feeling like so much on my shoulders and along came a sparrow sitting with me. I liked that. Made me feel I am not alone. I am so glad that your life is not so internalized and you can share. Lifting a lot off the shoulders. When I look back at bf's and I think what my life could have been with them, I realize if things did not move forward, we were drowning in hopeless emotions with no direction. I am glad for the oppertunities I had over the next 30 years. Even when I went to college at 49, I the kids were great. So many personalities and they took in a ol' grandma, retired police chief like me. I was so anxious at first going back to school, and then a huge door opened. The kids and I had happy hearts, anxiety over test, and laughs and cries. College is a wonderful time at any age. I did take some online classes to ease the load. I could sit in PJ;s and middle of the night if I was awake to work on the work. You have a few weeks to work on reducing the anxiety with a whole world of help. Why not call the disabilities office on Monday and ask for an appointment. I found great help there to advise me what I needed to do for documentation of my problems I faced, and they helped me with a great woman on campus that worked with gals like us. Oh she was a gem Meg. She was so helpful and caring for me. She even shared a story of how she was driving down a street and a car pulled out in front of her. She hit the gas instead of the brakes and flew through the lobby of a huge bank wondow, the old architecture with marble, sky high ceilings. When she stopped she was OK, but later on the news that night they showed the front of the bank, with a huge sign, coming soon "drive up service"! Well, we are having a late supper so I better get fryng the chicken, Hugs sweetie, :circlelove: di |
good news. the psychatrist my aunt gave me the number for is seeing me on Tuesday at 3:30.
im nearvous because i have NO idea how much is is ($10 co pay or $4897648 like ive seen pdoc appointments go for) im really nervous about the whole thing :/ added: does anyone have blue cross blue shield? I checked their website to "find a doctor" and the doctor she gave me was on the site so that means he's on my insurance right? his 'profile' says pay for service, does that mean like hundreds of dollars each time, or my co-pay? now that i have to deal with all my insurance stuff myself, its so confusing i feel like im being forced to grow up in 4 seconds and handle everything and it makes me dizzy. |
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Hi Meg, If he is "inNetwork" as the lady told you that means they accept the BC payment and you pay $10. If you want to make sure, call the office and ask for billing information and tell them you want to make sure you understand your payment amount. Also, ask them if you should get a copy of the emergency room records or will they send for them. The first visit will go fast and the doctor follows a format one thing, what brings you to him. Write down a few things you want to rmember, The first the panic attacks and how this is affecting you. That you want to have a best shot to succede in college but feel like life is a million directions adn emtions now, or however you feel your life is,. I am so super glad that you see a doc this soon, that was the best thing when I started putting it in a pros hands...things clicked and I really did start getting better. What a great time college is going to be, this will really help you get ready. di :hug: |
i called th einsurance people and they said it should be just the co pay but im still nervous its the first psychatrist ive ever seen and i have no idea what to expect or anything its making me anxious and nervous. i dont want to go in there and feel like he thinks im faking like everyone else does:(
last night i went to mikes house and we had a legit good time, we watched the sox game and just hung out. i can tell he really wants me around but im still confused but i wont show that to him. earlier today i was in such a good mood because of last night and now its just kinda gone away... i duno :( im really really really hoping to get the laptop ive been looking at tonight, itll give me something to do other than think aout my mood or tomorrow. do you guys think its bad that i write mike letters/notes in word about what im thinking/feeling? i usually end up reading them on the phone, but yesterday i gave it to him and he read it. he never reacts or says anything about them. he doesnt ask about them, he just 'hears' them and then we move on. the whoel time ive known him hes been one to wsweep things under the rug and try to forget about them and since no one will ask him/remind him about them, until now, hes been able to hide everything to the point where it gets to him and he breaks down (starts crying and talks about ending it, everything is to much to handle etc) and everytime its happened ive been there and sometimes he'll tell me what caused it others he wont. i duno. i feel like everythign is about him lately but i want it to be because its giving me something to focus on. im someone who cant function without a project or a plan or a goal. i was fine when i had school cuz that was my goal. but i graduated and now what.....then my goal was get a job, did that....now while im waiting for school to start again, i want my goal to be to help mike. erjgqerjlghre |
here i am on my new laptoppppp just a happy updaate for once...
and check out my songg http://youtube.com/watch?v=RIoBXdQX_wY |
thanks so much...that was truly awesome! great about the laptop! great about the relaxed time with Mike....
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so its today. my pdoc appointment is in a few hours.
i decided i need to write out what is bothering me so i can tell him/have him read it but thinking about making a list seems so daunting, im one of those people that it drives me crazy when i forget something. so making this list is making me anxious. thinking about everything thats bothering me and then trying to sort it out/write it down is gonna be hell for me. i wish i had someone here to help me and calm me down while thinking about it. but again, im home alone, but even if someone was here they wouldnt help me anyway because they think all of this is a joke and 'in my head'. i wish after my appointment i could go see mike, and tell him what i went through but i know if i tell him i had a psychatrist appointment that hell freak out and think im psycho and not want anything to do with me (he thinks my panic attacks were brought on because of him and he feels like sometimes he was only with me because he felt bad so this wouldnt help that) and i hate how my posts usually end up mentioning mike, but i cant help it. i feel like i should hate him, but i cant. i cant just drop this. i have a headache already and ive only been awake for like 15 mins. :( and now i have to write to the pdoc. someone help me:( |
Dear megveg,
I hope that you did fine in the pdoc's office. I feel relieved after I get in there and know that someone else is going to take care of my problems for me. Mari |
im back from the pdoc.
hes kinda mean. like i felt like i was intruding on his space and he didnt really want me there. i wrote out what i was feeling and why i was upset and he kept interrupting me and i was getting kinda mad. i thought he was supposed to listen to me and help? i felt like he had his own adgenda and i was wrong in trying to tell him things and he was like no no no this is what were talking about. and near the end he was like, okay im gonna stop you and tell you about seeing a psychatrist. heres a perscription for xanax (alprazolam) and sent me on my way, if i needed someone to talk to and listen i woulda saved myself the copay and talked here. he flat out said hes not gonna be enough for me and that at times ill feel abandoned by him and ill be mad, why would i want a pdoc that admits hes not gonna be there when i need him? is this supposed to happen? or is this a step in the direction that everyone says they see a bunch of doctors before they get diagnosed? i feel like ive already been diagnosed tho... i have anxiety and panic attacks and he gave me meds for that...he made me feel like my issues arent important and that by giving me medication, he can shut me up and be all set. am i supposed to feel like this? i have another appointment on friday at 2pm. ekrgljrwgjwtrvglwhr help someone :( |
Hi Sparrow.
Unfortunalty I think the majority of the higher the title as in the ones that perscribs meds are the ones that it is black and white and they write the scripts. He identifys a problem, starts medication to get the patient focused and then the structure of how to treat starts. In my daughters case, she is 12 and the Pdoc, wanted to med her, she refuses, it is grief and bullying causing schoolphobic and anxiety. So the Pdoc gave a dagx, with med and advised em to get her a medical card and behavioral therapist to help her reasociate back to social experiances. from your post I see why she did not talk more and loosly had a format your doc did, but asked questions quickly when she had past medical history and IEP from school....which she did not read prior to the appointment. My PCP has provided my meds, and then I followed up with a counsleing center, She is a doctor but not give meds, has gone through some of what I did. I think this is step one, as he said you need more then he can work at ie) meds. You do need "us", lol, but someone more then us that has training in how to do more then identify issues, but knowing you face to face can advise how to move through it with techniques they use. Mine are bio-feedback, sleeping patterns, working with chronic pain. My daughter is reintroducing the socialization, The Pdoc, nor I can give her as much help as someone trained. I have started with letting her stay overnight at my sons and dil's. They take her to the mall, she even got her ears pierced. Phobic to doc's dentist, med's and needles. This is your first step, the medication is a good help. I guess he thinks for episods take xanax. Long term something else is better to take everyday, especially with school and studying. I would call the no. on the back of the card if he did not recommend another doc to follow up. Ask them about therapist. You may want to try one or two, depending on finding the right fit. I would see the PCP if you have not yet though. That way they know all my meds and make sure they don't interact with each other. You have a good start. I don;t know the strength of xanax, but when I took it for panic attacks from flying, and long trips it made me a high feeling. The ativan I saw helped for day to day. The xanax, for heavy meltdowns. If that makes sense. Lexapro works better for me in focusing. Effexor I had difficulty with, and paxil. My daughter had diabetes from cymbalta. It is all individule though. It will work out, but heal yourself, use the most of your energy with that. School is only weeks away. I am so excited for you. di:hug: |
Get back on the phone and find a new pdoc
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He can't really deal with you. Also, Xanax is just a bandaid. Keep daily short notes on a calendar or note book about how you feel on it. You might need someone who can give you better meds. Here's the thing. For lots of people, Xanax is probably enough. So pdocs give it out and wait and see what happens. If the patient comes back with more complaints, then the pdoc can see that they need more than Xanax. M. |
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--> A few psychiatrists do talk (listening) and meds (listening). --> Most psyschiatrists mostly do meds (no listening). --> Therapists and counselors do talk (listening). What does this guy do? Mari |
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how do i go about finding just a psychologist/therapist? are those the same thing? everything is getting overwhelming, i thought today was gonna help me not make me more anxious jngkjrtngkvbejt:( |
Mari is right.
Pdocs prescribe the meds, therapists do the talking. There are pdocs that do both but he is letting you know that he is not one of them. Since you have seen him once see how it goes on friday. Please be patient with yourself in all of this....it is hard going thru all of your history...bringing up issues, reliving those feelings. It sounds like you did well to bring in stuff with you. YOu are making steps in the right direction. THis is wonderful! hang in there.... (((((HUGS))))) bizi www.MOODGYM.ANU.EDU.AU is web site based on Cognitive Behavior Therapy. It walks you through some feeling/thought retraining if you are depressed or anxious. |
So I took my first xanax last night around 6ish. I felt VERY woosy and had what I call the 'hot tub feeling' like the feeling of going from really hot to colderish and your legs are all wobbly and you feel dehydrated and weak and dizzy. I didnt notice it right away cuz i was sitting on my bed with my laptop and i got up and almost lost my balance i was like 'woah i need to stand up' and i walked down the hall way and almost had to reach for the wall to stand up. Its like the feeling when your legs fall asleep and you cant stand on them well cuz theyre still tingly.
Its working better than the ativan I got when I was in the ER. The ativan stopped me from having panic attacks, but I had my pre-panix attack anxiety and racing thoughts and difficulty breathing, and instead of pre-panic for 15 mins, then a full panic attack, it was a 3-4 hour stretch of pre-panic and it was so awful I was BEGGING for a panic attack because the way I felt, a 25 min panic attack would be welcome relief compared to hours of anxiety waiting for a panic attack to end it that would never come. The ativan also made me VERY drowsy and I couldn't drive on it which made me even more anxious. With the xanax, I feel woosy/drowsy for like maybe 20-25 mins and then im fine. S I think the meds are helping, just the doctor isn't. I slept till 1pm today. Mike asked me last night to call and wake him up ( i like doing it for some reason) and I called him tons of times, but his phone was on 'alarm only' by accident so he didnt get anything and I was worried because he needed to be up at 5:30a and out the door to be at the work site at 6:30....well I find out his mom woke up up at 6:30 (his usual wake up time). SO he was wicked late and I feel terrible but it wasnt my fault, and he didnt tell his mom when he needed to be up. I dont feel responsible I just feel bad that he was late. I restarted a journal online. I used to use a site called Blurty (like livejournal) and I wrote in it anything and everything, and a few people I knew would read it and comment. I kinda want people from on here to comment on mine. I have it set to friends only so not everyone can read all my posts and I was hoping people here who were interested would like to read it and comment. If people aren't into the whole signing up for a username just to respond, then I could set it so everyone can read them and respond (it would come up anon so youd have to leave who you are) If anyone is interested in following me along, please let me know. Theres a link to my journal in my signature. ( I hope you like the layout and stuff, I love designing them and the layout will probably change often cuz I love doing HTML) I would love to have comments from people who understand. :hug: |
Well I went to your site and could not figure out how to register....
I am not very computer savy though.....:rolleyes: bizi |
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youre essentially making a journal, but you dont have to post in it or anything, you can just use it to read other peoples journals. :) if you want to use it as a journal you can too :) then when I post it'll show up in your 'friends' page and when you post, it'll be on my friends page so I can reply when you post too:) |
Hi Meg, I was wondering if you saw this live version of your song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZ9je...eature=related . I found it to be quite fun. I had never heard the song before. Thank you for the introduction.
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WEll I started a journal....I think ...LOL
so I left you a post there.... hopefully others will follow suit. here is getting to know you better! bizi |
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ohhh im so excited i already posted on yours! :) |
im in the worst mental state today. im trying to keep my head up about it but i have the strongest feeling then everyting im tryign to be hopeful for theres no hope.
but im gonna try and keep my head up. im trying to see the good side. |
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Hi sparrow. Today you say things are a downer, but are still looking around how special a day. The "things" may be overwhelming but the sun is out, we have fresh air unless those in CA fires. As overwhelming as the day may feel you are thought of and and being sent a hug and wishes. I decided today to get my butt moving and go "look" at the talked about designer purses, I forget the name I am so fashion void. I am not buying but found a loney friend and am going to make a memory. I am thinking of you, think of me, :hug: di PS I am not too up on new things like blogs to and links, but your journal page is soothing, I have to figure out how to leave a message. |
Xanax
Dear Meg,
That's good about the Xanax working. Maybe he is a good psychiatrist after all. The most important thing for a psychiatrist to do is to give you the right meds. You might be on the right track now. Mari |
Meg
Lots of times a good psychiatrist will have a psychologist or two they like to work with. So ask your psychiatrist tomorrow if he would recommend any. And if you would prefer a female to a male then ask specifically about a female. Also realize that its sometimes best to interview a few and see who you like. I have three son's and my oldest it took lots of work to find a psychiatrist that could prescribe a medication that would work for him, (16 years) And honestly we had many psychologist but only one or two worked good with him. And he hated it when they left. And the psychiatrist that worked out for him, was one that talked to him. She happened to be a adolescent boys one. But she happened to work inside a residential treatment center that schools in INdiana placed lots of boys that couldn't work good in schools. My son luckily was placed by the court when they could tell he had lots of mental health help,but none had helped. My younges son, has lucked out. He has had one psychiatrist for 6 years. And three psychologist. But one in particular has worked with him for or part of all 6 years. The other two are school psychologist, that the special education department hired. One left (he also helped my oldest) but he still needs to talk at times. Me I talk to all that will listen, they are my psychologist. And I love all my friends. And I will be searching for a program with psychologist, or a group when I can afford it again. OR maybe in the next two weeks. Donna |
i had my second pdoc appointment today, i stil feel like he wants nothing to do with me and makes me feel like my issues arent important. i need to find a good psycologist right now.
and i need to step up and be an adult. everything is getting to me and im trying not to rely on the xanax but it seems like mmy only option:( |
It seems like you need to be looking for a new pdoc as well as a therapist.
what a jerk. they are not all like that really. Maybe you could ask for a woman? bizi |
I agree with Bizi...there are a lot of jerks out there...too many I think...you have to have a lot of patience and faith in your judgment. I don't want to count how many I have seen in my life until my current one of almost seven years almost fell in my lap. There are jewels out there among all the paste. Keep humming your song as you look.
Bobby |
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