Check-in: Sat, May 25 U.S. Memorial Day Week End
 

Hello,

Do you want to check in with updates or let us know if you are doing anything different this weekend?

We have had rain, but it is what we call light rain.

Hubby is stressing me out a bit at the moment. I wish he did a better job of calming himself down when he gets wound up. If I am stressed / distressed I can't do the job for him.

I think I am getting over my cold. (celebration!)

I hope that everyone is OK.

M.

PS.
I need to take a class in reading the calendar.
Today / Saturday is May 23 -- all day long.

my tentative weekend itinerary
 

ROFL Mari.

Indeed, it is still the 23rd at the moment, even my side of the ocean. But if we consider the long weekend Sat-Sun-Mon as a single entity, then you can get away with calling it the 25th ;):D:p How's that logic for ya?

i was up (at only 11am) and had just got dressed and fed before heading to the P.O. when my parents called me back in the nick of time from the elevator saying the P.O. has changed hours. it is now only open until noon (used to be 12.30. grrrr). well. saved me a trip. i only had to pick up something.

this weekend i will attempt to write a letter back to my soul-sister and then re-attempt the P.O. on Monday (not public holiday here). then i will have to get there by 2pm which is when the P.O closes on weekdays. Why can't semi-state offices here have NORMAL business hours. grrr. By NORMAL i mean ... like, 9-5 ISH, crikey, at least on weekdays! :mad: ok, i suppose what i really mean is NORMAL by US standards (which is standard for me). grrrrrr.

other than that nothing different. i will try to do a bit of clearing up. my area looks like a hurricane hit it. :(

if i can get past the psychological resistance to my environment i would like to sing some this weekend. perhaps even take the guitar outside and see if i can find a fairly lonely corner (not easy - people everywhere). i dunno. big if. but i woke up from a dream where i was singing The Spy Who Loved Me by Carly Simon, in a very pure, clear, high voice. The dream reminded me that i do have one of those that needs to be exercised.

At 3.00pm today my usual appointment with Hercule Poirot on tv. not sure if it will be a single 2 hour episode or two 1 hour ones. after that, at 5pm is MONK! yeah! hopefully i will be able to enjoy it this week...

i am in better spirits than last weekend. last weekend when i watched those same shows it was actually exhausting and i barely appreciated it.

that's about all the plans i have. oh yeah, i will wash my big fluffy blanket if the washer doesn't get taken over by my competitor before she leaves the house. i do not intend to compete overtly (i.e. argue). i will just wait... in ambush... for the washer to be free. whenever that may be.

that's it for me.

~ waves ~

Dear waves,
you sound like you are feeling better. I am happy to read about your report...thank you for the check in.
The cats are getting along fairly well, playing a bit ruff though.
WE saw the movie angels and demons last night...it was good!
going to a play tonight, the miricle worker, helen keller, a friend of ours is directing it. I think we will try to have crawfish for supper tonight as the season is winding down and we have not had any for quite some time.
I am sitting in my pj's and need to get going for the day, I finally slept last night after taking 2 klonipin...sigh.
beth

Hi Mari, Waves, and Beth.

Mari I'm glad your over your cold.

Waves, glad your feeling better also.

Beth, I loved the pics of your new kitty.

I had a date today but I am not into the guy so later I told him I just want keep it friends for now. He said that was fine. A mutual friend of ours told me to tell him that when I told her I planned on telling him we'd never be anything more than friends. I wish I had done it my way now.

Barbara

well so much for that
 

thanks guys. alas, "better" was very short-lived. this is how it's been... for the past couple months really.

i can still get intellectual at times and seem ok and distract myself a little and even be sort of ok... for a short while.

and then some nothing happens and it starts all over. i really don't feel like being in this world. i am not of this world. it crushes me. this evening and tonight i was a crying mess again.

now i mostly just feel like garbage. so much for endorphins from crying, dunno where they went. i sure didn't feel any. i feel kinda numb from overload is all... but not enough to be comfortably numb.

i hope everyone else feels better than i do coz if you don't that really sucks.

bobby i know you've been roughing it... :( i feel for you too.

Dear Waves,
This sounds like awful cycling....
This also sounds like chemicals too...like maybe this is more than just grief.
Grief alone is hard ...but then throw bipolar into the mix and you really have trouble.
I wonder if you will get your welbutrin prescription filled.
How long have you been on depokote?
Do you think this mood stabilizer is still working for you?
Is trileptal available there?
You can't get lamictal is that right?
I am sorry that you are feeling this badly.
there are hot line numbers to call if you are ever in need of talking to anybody, the chat rooms here are very slow but there are people chatting usually in the psychcentral chat rooms, sometimes I go there when I want to talk to someone. I will try to get the link for you. you have to register and I don't remember that being a big deal.
I am sorry this is so hard for you right now.
((((HUGS)))
beth

Hi Gang
I am back.So much to do but I need to give my back a few minutes of rest. I got in this morning at 3 AM,

I did not get to see MegVeg as she was landing the day we left so that was sad. Then the traffic delays and stopped traffic delayes us so long I could not get off in Richmond to see our Befuddled. I will have to take a trip down to see her though. Maybe even bring her back with me a few days after all the events are taken care of.

Everyone have a great weekend. Thinking of you all....
di
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hi DiMarie
 

I was thinking of you / concerned.

Glad to have you check in.

waves

Aw, that would be nice Di.

Waves, I hope that you feel better soon.

barbara

Dear Waves,
You sound very sad. I'm worried.
I'm hoping that Sunday is better than Saturday was.
M.

I'm numb today
 

I am sort of ok... i feel numb.

i haven't done anything but sat at the computer.

funny you should quote that piece Mari. I did sing yesterday - not really sit with my guitar and sing which is what i meant, but sang a little here and there. then somebody was humming an abba tune and i put that cd on. and sang to the first 2 songs. and then totally broke down.

i have omitted the surrounding garbage that was happening with regard to
- me putting the cd on ("too loud" of course - not)
- me taking the cd off
- the windows getting shut because of the neighbors

it was EARLY EVENING - NOT quiet hours - and other sometimes people in the condo play audible music at such times, ESPECIALLY on weekends. if i had been playing guitar it would have easily made as much noise. not to mention the noise that comes up from the park on the weekends.

the manner and mannerisms with which the above all occurred. that is what got to me. i was doing ok. i was singing what was my favorite song when i was 9 years old... and WHAMMM! get nailed by the local sound police... everything police... police this, police that, police everything i do.

those same manners and mannerisms were involved... years ago... when bad things happened. icing on the cake.

ahh, now the dinner police is calling. bread needs made. later....

~ waves ~

Waves, I didn't know you played the guitar. I tried to but never could. It's good to hear you've done a little singing here and there lately.

I went shopping today and got myself a pair of shoes to wear to court on Tuesday. I am so sleepy or else I would go back out and get an outfit to wear with the shoes. Since shoes are so hard to find with my big feet I have to get the shoes first and then match the outfit to them. The shoes are orange so that may be hard also with clothes. I'm so tired I can't think.

barbara

Dear Barbara
 

i write songs... and sing/play them (as well as many covers) on my guitar. that is what i really need to be doing more of but that is stilted in my living situation. last night i was just singing along with the cd. even the cd was stilted, go figure.

orange shoes will go great with:

ALL EARTH/WARM TONES:
brown,
beige (any tone)
khaki
olive
mustard

hopefully you have something like that - it's a pretty wide range.

if you don' have any of those grey would be next best i think. black or white would work, but would be more stark. yellow would be a bit glarish.

avoid: cold tones (blues, greens, violets), pink, and red.

:hug:

is this a follow up with your in-laws or is it with the neighbor woman?

~ waves ~

We went to brunch at "another broken egg"
had this great eggs benedict with a spinach sauce it was delicious.
jeff is making friendship bread, he gave a starter to our friends, they are celebrating their third wedding anniversary. WE were lucky to attend their wedding in spain, gay marriages are legal there.
I am going to do some drawing and maybe write a poem for my journey class. The day is flying by. It is five oclock already.
That makes it 11 for you waves, you going to try to readjust your sleeping? I will be on line later if you need to talk.
beth

Thank you Waves for the information on the color for my outfit. I go to court with the in-laws on Tuesday if they don't accept my offer of them buying me out. I made a post about it Friday I believe.

I envy you for being so gifted to sing songs, write them, and play the guitar. Every once in a blue moon I'll write a poem. I'll be laying in bed and the rhymes just come to me and I build from there. Usually they are short greeting card rhymes. I think if there is a way at all for you to write and play the music it would be good to get back into. Can you go to the park to work on yur music? Oh, you did say the park is loud though and that could be distracting. We've got to figure out how you can get back into it. I love music and listen to it mostly all of my waking hours and very little T.V.

Barbara

Beth, wow! I bet that was an experience to go to Spain. It seems like songs and poetry and writing is common to some of us here. Pam writes books and you write poems and Waves writes songs. When I was young I use to be able to write a good story line rather well. I've lost that knack many years ago. I did have a high school teacher ask me if I'd ever thought about becoming a writer. The only writing I can do now is a poem once in a blue moon and they're not that great on my part.

barbara

Barbara
 

waves writes lots of poems too ;) ... well, i used to. :o

and it happens the same way as with you, Barbara... they just flow in my head.

the main reason i don't play outside is i smoked for quite a long time and then was afflicted by many bouts of bronchitis... my voice is out of exercise... and when you exercise you sometimes have to push it... and sometimes weird things come out. that and - this is embarrassing - it's been so long, i've forgotten many of my OWN songs/lyrics, so i need papers around me.

the other reason i don't go outside is i often need to be in a protective shell. i don't exactly have that. i mean this shell isn't exactly protective. when i lived on my own i would sing daily, usually just because... in the same way one normally eats... it has always been part of me. so much of me is cut off living here. but i am stuck for a while...

yes you did post that you would find out about your inlaws Tuesday, in your thread - i guess i wasn't clear about the need to go to court again if they did not take the offer. i'm not savvy on this stuff. maybe that was in the post too in which case... i missed it. oops! :(

~ waves ~

Hi Beth
 

It is now 1.50 am here... ehhh 9.50 your time.

dang those eggs benedict sounded goooooood. i told my parents tonight i might be going vegetarian. we had meat tonight and it had a weird effect on me. mentally. i will still eat fish.

i miss going out to like brunch places and stuff. got into kind of a tradition with my friend and neighbor in california... we used to go to this really nice place in Los Gatos (quite a drive for us, but worth it) that had all kiiiiiinnds of creative egg dishes... artichoke omelettes, for one... their eggs benedict were great too, but no spinach sauce. they also served rosemary potatoes that were kind of a cross between hash browns and home fries... yumm. SIGH. here people balk at having eggs in the morning. lol.

i am not going to try to do anything with my schedule i will just sleep when i get tired. the way i am, the less i have to interact with people, the better. so if i'm sleeping when they're awake, fine. plus, it's cooler at night. and this way the plants get some light (i shine the fluorescent light their way) coz the window police takes over during the daytime and draws the blinds until almost dark to keep the heat out. my Zamioculcas is unwell... it needs a lot of light.

I might try pinging you Beth for a chat later... if i am more viable... not sure. i still feel very spent and numb. physically and emotionally, despite the fact that i'm not sleepy. we had a few blowouts tonight as well but minor compared. this time i ended up being assertive/aggressive rather than a crying mush. it was a healthier reaction but it is hard feeling so angry even if i am being instigated.

~ waves ~

Hi Waves,

The court with in-laws on Tuesday will be to decide what if anything I'll get out of the marital home. If they take my offer all the judge will do is make it legal if we're at court. They could accept before court and then court will be canceled.

I didn't think about how all the minues to doing your music in the park. I can relate to the being in a protective shell.

It is late and I have been coloring my notebook with pretty markers.
It has been fun....sort of....waves you understand.:(
hugs to you....
beth

nite nite
 

Beth... you mean, i understand... about being fun... sort of? yeah. :( you sound rather sad. i figure you're probably heading off to bed now... you or are already there... i hope you wake up feeling a bit better.

i will have to take a nap soon too. the parents are awake now. i am going to have a cup of tea first.

Barbara thanks for clearing me up about court. keeping fingers crossed for ya.

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY EVERYONE!

~ waves ~ with droopy eyelids

Dear Befuddled,

My feet are hard to fit too -- for different reasons.
I think I'd like to see those orange shoes -- sound great.



Waves,

Those are great suggestions to go with the shoes.
If I thought really hard about it, I might have thought of something brown or "brown family." I like better your suggestions for "warm colors" over "cool colors"


M.

Dear Bizi,

I like hearing about your restaurant trips.
You two enjoy going out it seems - AND add adventure by ordering fun foods.

The last two days hubby wanted Chinese (only food family I absolutely hate.) On Saturday I went along but on Sunday he got take out and I heated up stuff from our freezer for myself.
Once I had Chinese in a rather expensive and very nice restaurant out of town. It was much better than the family-type restaurants in my neighborhood. So, I am sure that I do not hate all Chinese food -- maybe a trip to Beijing is in order.


Dear Waves,

I don't know how the voice works as an instrument, but I am thinking that your voice can come back.
And if it does not come back exactly the same, that's ok.
Other musicians sometimes have better careers with their new voice -- Frank Sinatra comes to mind but if I worked on my memory for a day or two I could come up with other singers who sound better with their new voice.

Virginia Woolf would agree with you about needing your own place and your own space for your art:
M.

hurricane prep and June 12 US switch to digital broadcasting
 

Hi, Everyone,

Something on my mind as June 1 and the first day of hurricane season approaches is that I have to prepare.
One year we had a hurricane scare BEFORE June 1. :holysheep:

So off the top of the head I remember I have to
-drink last year's bottled water
-get hubby to buy new bottled water (will not expire until past Dec 1)
-check that batteries work
-start major stock piling toilet paper and paper towels -- stinks to need those the same day every one on the east coast is rushing to the grocery store
-clean up apt so one could get around in the dark if one had to.


What else do I need for right now?



Months ago hubby bought a small HDTV (with fancy antenna) for me that is in the closet in a box. :Oops:
He needs to set that up for me soon so I can watch storms dissipate or go around us again.
Maybe if I clear up some space in the living room, he can get it out of the box for me
and figure out how to work it BEFORE the US switch to digital on June 12. Hello.
Any other ideas to motivate him?

Is everyone else set up for the June 12 switch??
Maybe I am the only one on the board without cable or satellite.



M.

Thanks, Waves,
Have a good day everyone. I hope to sleep fine.
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M.

Your welcome Waves and thank you for the well wishes.

Mari, thank you also. I may take a picture of the shoes and post them if you'd like.

Today I'm going shopping today for an outfit to wear to court now that I know what will go with my shoes.

barbara

Hi all,

I had a good Memorial day weekend. Saturday was a day that my
husband bought a car for a backup for me, and a car for Danny that
he is buying from him. And then we went garage saling.

And shopping, I bought some summer clothes. And then we went to
pizza hut for the all you can eat pizza.

On Sunday we just had a relaxing day, then went to a graduation
party for a friends daughter. And then relaxed some more.

Today my husband did some cleaning, hmmm, then he and Derrick
and a friend of Derrick's went to see Star Trek.

Donna

We lost electric power for about 45 minutes in the middle of the night. Hubby was sleeping.
I found a flashlight and starting sorting through some paperwork -- because there was nothing else to do and I was not going to go to sleep.

I don't like being disrupted from my own happy world by power outages. I need things to work as expected -- especially something that I depend on for sanity.

M.

was there a storm mari?
yesterday we went to our friends house for a cook out and had the best salmon, he uses fresh lemon and some spices it was fantastic!
then we went to see the star trek movie and loved it!

I have not been sleeping well though....sigh
beth

Dear Mari
 

There's nothing like a little power outage to give one a taste of pre-hurricane season freakout, is there. :( i used to live in the islands where we had lotssss of power outages so in a way i am not freaked by them so much... but they do remind us of how vulnerable we are without all the electrically-run amenities we have today... and have grown to depend on, don't they? :o

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Dear Beth
 

Hey, we had fresh salmon for dinner last night too! At home though, but it came out really well. Often it gets overcooked, so it was particularly appreciated.

I wonder if i will be able to deal with going to see a new older than old generation of star trek. i was a big fan of the originals even though eventually the New Generation series grew on me. But i think the movie is a pre-old generation one, right? I guess i should look it up on IMDB... :o

i hope you will be able to sleep better tonight. Sometimes warm milk near bedtime helps me if it is just mild insomnia. It is the magnesium in it, which is better absorbed if the milk is warm.

~ waves ~