Hello,

Do you want to check in with updates or let us know if you are doing anything different this weekend?

We have had rain, but it is what we call light rain.

Hubby is stressing me out a bit at the moment. I wish he did a better job of calming himself down when he gets wound up. If I am stressed / distressed I can't do the job for him.

I think I am getting over my cold. (celebration!)

I hope that everyone is OK.

M.

PS.
I need to take a class in reading the calendar.
Today / Saturday is May 23 -- all day long.

ROFL Mari.

Indeed, it is still the 23rd at the moment, even my side of the ocean. But if we consider the long weekend Sat-Sun-Mon as a single entity, then you can get away with calling it the 25th How's that logic for ya?

i was up (at only 11am) and had just got dressed and fed before heading to the P.O. when my parents called me back in the nick of time from the elevator saying the P.O. has changed hours. it is now only open until noon (used to be 12.30. grrrr). well. saved me a trip. i only had to pick up something.

this weekend i will attempt to write a letter back to my soul-sister and then re-attempt the P.O. on Monday (not public holiday here). then i will have to get there by 2pm which is when the P.O closes on weekdays. Why can't semi-state offices here have NORMAL business hours. grrr. By NORMAL i mean ... like, 9-5 ISH, crikey, at least on weekdays! ok, i suppose what i really mean is NORMAL by US standards (which is standard for me). grrrrrr.

other than that nothing different. i will try to do a bit of clearing up. my area looks like a hurricane hit it.

if i can get past the psychological resistance to my environment i would like to sing some this weekend. perhaps even take the guitar outside and see if i can find a fairly lonely corner (not easy - people everywhere). i dunno. big if. but i woke up from a dream where i was singing The Spy Who Loved Me by Carly Simon, in a very pure, clear, high voice. The dream reminded me that i do have one of those that needs to be exercised.

At 3.00pm today my usual appointment with Hercule Poirot on tv. not sure if it will be a single 2 hour episode or two 1 hour ones. after that, at 5pm is MONK! yeah! hopefully i will be able to enjoy it this week...

i am in better spirits than last weekend. last weekend when i watched those same shows it was actually exhausting and i barely appreciated it.

that's about all the plans i have. oh yeah, i will wash my big fluffy blanket if the washer doesn't get taken over by my competitor before she leaves the house. i do not intend to compete overtly (i.e. argue). i will just wait... in ambush... for the washer to be free. whenever that may be.

that's it for me.

~ waves ~

Dear waves,
you sound like you are feeling better. I am happy to read about your report...thank you for the check in.
The cats are getting along fairly well, playing a bit ruff though.
WE saw the movie angels and demons last night...it was good!
going to a play tonight, the miricle worker, helen keller, a friend of ours is directing it. I think we will try to have crawfish for supper tonight as the season is winding down and we have not had any for quite some time.
I am sitting in my pj's and need to get going for the day, I finally slept last night after taking 2 klonipin...sigh.
beth

Hi Mari, Waves, and Beth.

Mari I'm glad your over your cold.

Waves, glad your feeling better also.

Beth, I loved the pics of your new kitty.

I had a date today but I am not into the guy so later I told him I just want keep it friends for now. He said that was fine. A mutual friend of ours told me to tell him that when I told her I planned on telling him we'd never be anything more than friends. I wish I had done it my way now.

Barbara

thanks guys. alas, "better" was very short-lived. this is how it's been... for the past couple months really.

i can still get intellectual at times and seem ok and distract myself a little and even be sort of ok... for a short while.

and then some nothing happens and it starts all over. i really don't feel like being in this world. i am not of this world. it crushes me. this evening and tonight i was a crying mess again.

now i mostly just feel like garbage. so much for endorphins from crying, dunno where they went. i sure didn't feel any. i feel kinda numb from overload is all... but not enough to be comfortably numb.

i hope everyone else feels better than i do coz if you don't that really sucks.

bobby i know you've been roughing it... i feel for you too.

Dear Waves,
This sounds like awful cycling....
This also sounds like chemicals too...like maybe this is more than just grief.
Grief alone is hard ...but then throw bipolar into the mix and you really have trouble.
I wonder if you will get your welbutrin prescription filled.
How long have you been on depokote?
Do you think this mood stabilizer is still working for you?
Is trileptal available there?
You can't get lamictal is that right?
I am sorry that you are feeling this badly.
there are hot line numbers to call if you are ever in need of talking to anybody, the chat rooms here are very slow but there are people chatting usually in the psychcentral chat rooms, sometimes I go there when I want to talk to someone. I will try to get the link for you. you have to register and I don't remember that being a big deal.
I am sorry this is so hard for you right now.
((((HUGS)))
beth

Hi Gang
I am back.So much to do but I need to give my back a few minutes of rest. I got in this morning at 3 AM,

I did not get to see MegVeg as she was landing the day we left so that was sad. Then the traffic delays and stopped traffic delayes us so long I could not get off in Richmond to see our Befuddled. I will have to take a trip down to see her though. Maybe even bring her back with me a few days after all the events are taken care of.

Everyone have a great weekend. Thinking of you all....
di

I was thinking of you / concerned.

Glad to have you check in.

waves

Aw, that would be nice Di.

Waves, I hope that you feel better soon.

barbara

Dear Waves,
You sound very sad. I'm worried.
I'm hoping that Sunday is better than Saturday was.
M.