sort of overwhelmed
 

Hi,
I'm refusing to go to bed.
And being destructive.


M.

do you know what is overwhelming you? is it a bunch of things catching up with you? can you stay home from work? Maybe you should stay home from work....i think we go through periods where we have to catch up with ourselves and it is very painful and frightening while we are lagging...
bobby

Thanks.
 

Bobby,
You are such a dear.
I can work it out and stay home. And tell the anxieties to take a break.
I'll make a phone call or two and make apologies.
Now maybe I can go to bed too.


Then I can sleep, go for a walk, and try to let go of anxiety.


M.

I agree Bobby, you are a dear.

I like this plan. But Mari, I want you to also work on coming up with
a plan for going to sleep at least some part of the night.

I don't care if you take off a week or two. But still work on finding
a way to sleep in a pattern also. Now if going to sleep say at 3am
and getting up at 10am is your pattern. Then arrange your
schedule for that.

Donna

I am sorry that you are overwhelmed...
I know how stress can effect you.
take some timeoff regroup and the end is in site, classes are almost over right? few more weeks?
bizi

Dear Mari
 

How about taking a couple of days off and traveling to a place you'd like to visit - as long as you can do that without having to come back to a mountain of work piled up?
Distance from a routine may be good for a perspective on how to reschedule your hours according to your metabolic rhythm.

Dear Donna,
About three or four days a week I sleep from
6:00 am to 9:15 am.
It is awful.
I am not nice to people when I am sleep deprived.
And I am not thinking or speaking clearly.


Today I stayed home from work and slept from 6:30 am to 2:30 pm.
I did not wear my sleep mask.


It is awful because I do anxiety stuff on purpose.


M.

Dear Mari
 

wow, that's 8 hours of sleep. i am glad you stayed home and got that.

is the sleep mask bothering you?

i am sorry you live with this sleep deprivation ... i am not usually sleep deprived but i have been, and lately it is a lot and it is really awful. :(

sending you some hugs and tranquil vibes.

and thank you for your support about my dad. it meant a lot to me.

~ waves ~

Dear Isis and Waves,
 

Thank you.

I just came back from a slow 25 minute walk. That was good.

Most of the time I am ok with the mask, but this morning I fell asleep on the couch. When I moved to the bed later I did not put on the mask.
I wanted to make sure I kept sleeping -- too much thinking might have awakened me.

That makes sense.
I can sleep at night.
I like to go to bed after the sun has come up.
It is very hard to get enough sleep in the winter months!
Summers are good. :)

M.

that sleep must have felt great!