Never ending Tears
 

I have been on Pristiq since 2009 and decided it was time to try AD medication free. Prior to Pristiq I was on cymbalta. Anyway I titrated down in 2013 to virtually nothing and was told by my GP to go back up to 100mg, I did so reluctantly and within 6 months again dropped down to 50mg and maintained that dose. In 2015 (last year) after hearing a number of psychologists saying it is not good to be on an AD long term; enough was enough! I titrated down once again over a good solid lengthy period of 6 months. eventually quit at the end of October. So I've been anti depressant free since then. I fully expected to be tearful and I was, but, it just doesn't seem to be improving. I cry watching TV, I cry if I hear something even mildly sad let alone truly sad! I cry all the time and it is so debilitating. It is really hard to get by in life with just normal functioning when all you want to do is cry!!

Awwww PamelaJune.....
 

To both my lady friends
Pam
I ask can you ask to be tested for the
"THE MTHFR DNA MUTATION"
I just told my shrink
Where he can go
I need him to write the insurance company on all the
Antidepressants he put me on and why would he not bat for me
so I can try this Mega Vitamin
Script necessary for"DEPLIN"
Instead he rush it and did not give my complete profile
It's like he doesn't want me to get better feeling I got
Then when the insurance company sent him the application
It was rushed and denied
When my shrink called me
This is what he said
"This is tedious stuff your asking me to do
It being dubious"
I told him
"You were real quick writing scripts for the antidepressants
and when I had a reaction he would not hear me"
I HAD IT WITH HIM
so I called and told him I was sad that he felt I was to tedious
Why would I want him to feel that
He since tried to call once
I did not answer
He knows what I think of him
May he feel ashamed
Nevertheless
Rather than ask my pain specialist give me my Xanax
I want off
But that's only when I get on this mega vitamin
Hope you get well soon
Know I cry everyday
Many times in the day
I'm right there with you guys
Love
Me

i failed to mention
 

more than 50% of the population has this mutation

No lessening in these tears, I feel so depressed and low.

Anyway, I woke up at 2,3,4 falling back to restless sleep each time, then one of our cats insisted on lying on me and forced me to get up about 5ish. Got into my routine, feed the cats, feed the dogs, went out back and heard this high pitched noise, turned the light on and the pond was drained completely with the pumps screaming. I quickly turned the one I could off and ran inside for DB to turn the other off. My worst nightmare come to fruition, pond drained empty and fish flapping in puddles under the deck. I couldn't look, DB did, and said they are all ok in a deep puddle under the deck and swimming. Our pond is about 11mtr in length 2 to 5mtr in width in areas and 1' deep in the shallow end 2' in the deep end, they were swimming in about 6 inches....

Long story short, 11 hours later pond filling, fish swimming happily, pump,problem hopefully resolved. Let's hope the fish survive the influx of fresh tap water and shock to their system. I can't believe they all survived in that shallow patch. Thank heaven the cat woke me...

Pam,

I am so sorry to learn of all the tears and depression. I would imagine all you have been through working with your husband's issues, trying to keep him from relapsing, etc., has to play a big part of all of this. This is no easy task.

The fish pond would seemingly be about the "end of the line"; but with the help of your husband, both of you handled it beautifully. (Also, need to give thanks to the cat.)......

We are here for you dear lady.


Gerry

not a visit from...
 

impending doom
it is lifted
though i am going through
panic attack like feelings
expected from the withdrawal
but
that feeling of DOOM
not in the past two mornings
falling asleep saturday and to awake
at four in the morning to void
returning back to bed awaiting for the visit
i fell asleep and awoke at 7:01 in the morning
i cannot remember the last time i got sleep like that
it would be such a wonderful blessing if this gut visit is
forever lifted
ups and downs are the norm
it would be awesome
me

Wanted to stop by and send some hugs:hug::hug::hug:

Hoping that the remainder of you day has brightened up some.

SAMe
 

Hi Pam,
You have been through so much in the last year. Perhaps it is not only depression, it is also frustration, anxiety and stress. I know when my frustration and stress are high, I get teary as well. You have ALOT on your plate and pain sure doesn't help the situation either.

I have had good luck with SAMe because I just cannot find an AD I can tolerate.
The good news is SAMe is good for other issues like pain and keeping your liver clear, etc.

Thinking of you Pam....sending hugs and prayers.
Love ya:)
D.

One warning for folks reading this who are bipolar.One article below does mention it is not good for bipolar issues because it can make one manic. I believe that is in the second link, the Dr Weil one.


http://www.psychiatrictimes.com/depr...m-e-depression

http://www.drweil.com/drw/u/QAA40101...epression.html


http://www.mayoclinic.org/drugs-supp...g/hrb-20059935

Thanks D, I tried to see if it is available over here and the good news is my pharmacist can order it in and it will be here by amindsy. I had a long drive down south yesterday to see an employee and sobbed my way into the town, it was my first time back to that particular town since my dad died and my mother moved. I had no clue it would affect me so much, as I drive past the old bowling green I burst into tears. Fortunately the employee I was visiting is so sick herself with ulcerative colitis and now fibromyalgia she is totally housebound and not so cognisant of my tearful appearance. I'm so over crying! I'm hoping these SAMe will have an impact, with a bit of luck I will be in a better frame of mind so I can relax and enjoy this upcoming cruise. hug: