a little under control-little by little
 

yesterday i didn't go on ebay. i will see if i can do it today. i did spend time looking at food stores though but didn't order anything. i am trying to lose weight.
i ate too much oatmeal yesterday and i catastrophized. i am going to try to drink 8 glasses of water each day.
each morning i wake up depressed but then it goes away. it is like a constant battle. i hope i don't have to go back to my old thread..little by little.
this morning aby didn't trigger my recent cat allergy to her. now i am going to try to walk in the hall and holding on to nothing.
love
bobby
i just walked down the hall and to the other side without anything. i am out of breath but i did it.

wow! that is great not going on ebay and walking unassisted.
keep it up!
happy for you.
love, bizi

i still haven't gone to ebay but i bought chinese food and ordered food from amazon. i walked to the lobby unassisted and picked up the chinese food. i have no endurance.
love
bobby

Bobby

I believe maybe say to yourself I'll buy chinese food. Once a week or
every other week. Keep up the not buying on ebay. You are doing great.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

what chinese food do you like to order, some of it is quite healthy!
love bizi

moo go gai pan and general taus chicken and egg drop soup. the depression is back.

do those dishes have veggies in them? I am not familiar with these dishes, I do like egg drop soup. the chinese place we go to does a quick stir fry so the veggies and still a bit crunchy they give me more veggies instead of the fried rice.
yummy!
love bizi

only one of them has. they come with fried rice. lucky you.
love
bobby

I have been walking downstairs every morning. I still wake up depressed
but it usually goes away. I am very anxious. ugh as usual i haven't been sleeping well.

Bobby

I have a feeling its more a blah feeling than a depressed feeling you get
up with. I know that probably doesn't make sense. But its awe I have
another nothing new to do day. I have a lot of that too.

But its just a I'm getting older day.

Donna

it is definitely depression I think I feel it during the night too. It is also sadness too. I am still not going to ebay but i really miss the temporary high.
fondly
bobby

I am sorry that you are sad. From your history you have had trauma and loss of your family and friends you have every right to be sad. But I would hope for your sake that you move on and place that all in the back of your memory.
Grieving takes as long as it takes. and there is no right way to grieve as you know. love to you tonight.
You are a sweet lady.
love bizi

i have such a good memory. i really still feel the pain. linda has come back again in my life. on thursday she will have a double mastectomy. she jokes about it. since pudge has been groomed she has been sleeping next to me every night. i don't know how that will last.
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bobby

Bobby

Sometimes laughter is the way we deal with our thoughts. I'm glad
that Linda can joke about the mastectomy. I don't remember if I
even talked about mine before the first one was supposed to happen.

But I sure yelled when the doctor refused thanks to the infection to do
the double. But that was just me and my disappointment at the time.

I got through what I needed to in the time period and finally had the
second one later. But it was not the way I had invisioned it.

I'm praying for Linda just like you to have a double with no problems.
Donna.

i am so sorry
fondly
bobby

I forgot to tell you. I really like your new title to this thread.

Its really a good way to think.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

I like the title as well!
love bizi

i keep on waking up depressed. i haven't been walking in the halls. i haven't gone to ebay.
love
bobby

I think waking up depressed is part of your life now.

Lets see if you can think of this different. Maybe instead think of it
as I just need to take my medicine and it will be gone. Maybe its a
reminder to take your medicine.

Now get out in the hall and walk. Even go down to the lobby and
walk but at least take a cane.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i have no trouble taking my medicine. that is the first thing i do. I am so tired I took a nap. just got up but still tired and depressed.. i don't have the energy to try to walk now. i would probably fall.
fondly
bobby

my friend Linda ad her surgery yesterday. Her doctor asked her about what kind of scare she wanted and she said he could embroidery his name if he wanted.
she relieves so heavily on humor.
I spoke with a Rabbi this morning and asked her to pray for Linda. Yesterday I asked another Rabbi who I take classes with to pray for her.
fondly
bobby

i so want to go to ebay. i had a stomach ache all night. rats. i might meet a friend tomorrow outside. we would go a block from my apartment. he is a nice caring person. i would take my walker.
fondly
bobby

Hi bobby, I wrote out a long post to you and it disappeared.
sigh.
Glad that you have a friend that you can walk with, hope
you are up to going...get you out of the apartment.
Sorry about your stomach ache, what did you eat yesterday?
maybe it was something that you ate.
Glad that you have these rabbi's calling you.
take care of yourself and I hope you have a nice day tomorrow.
love bizi

I think it had to do with my constipation and IBS-c.. I ate oatmeal again and I think it makes matters worse. I had baba ganoush.(sp)
I went to ebay yesterday but didn't buy anything.
love
bobby
i am so stressed. i don't know if I can walk down the block. on tuesday i go to the dentist and I havent gone since pandemic where I would go every three months for cleaning.. it doesn't hurt to eat but it is sometimes sensitive to air. i am just so anxious and I still have a stomach ache.

They recommend 20-25 grams of fiber a day.
So I don't see how taking 10 mg of fiber would stop me up.
I hope you get out with your friends help.
It will be good to talk to some one else and
do something away from your home.
Was he to come to your apartment or were

you going to just meet him there?
I hope you have a good visit!
love,
bizi

try drinking more water.
david called and cancelled. he had to do something with wife. i was relieved.
love
bobby

I do need to drink more water.
thanks will go and drink some right now!
bizi

I drink 4 or 5 bottles of water a day luckily my husband buys me a case
or two a week. Its one of my luxurious I give myself. I also try to
eat bran every day. Its something that helps me go the way I need to.

I also take fiber pills most days, at least 4 days a week. It helps me stay
regular.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i have to drink more water. I have tried bran beside oatmeal but think in my situation,they make it worse. only magnesium citrate liquid helps.
fondly
bobby

If I may ask what fiber pills do you take?

i bought more on ebay. rats. i will start probiotics again.
love
bobby
un 25, 2019 — By pooling the findings of the trials, the researchers found that on average, probiotics slowed “gut transit time” by 12.4 hours, increased the number of weekly bowel movements by 1.3, and helped soften stools, making them easier to pass. Probiotics that contained Bifidobacterium appeared to be the most effective.

they are generic for Metamucil usually either walmart or Dollar general,
which ever I can find. I can't stand the drink form, it makes me gage
and I start to throw it up. So My sister told me about these they work
for me. I find them right with the vitamins or sometimes the liquid
and powder stuff.

I'm just glad I found them.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

Thanks Donna, how many capsules do you take?
Daily?once or twice a day?
If I remember right you have
to take like 9 capsules.


bobby,
I used to take a probiotic,

but have quit I was getting sick of taking so
many pills. Plus I was not taking the

recommend dose of 3 capsules in this

garden of life self stable so no refrigerator

required.There are a lot of different ones out
there with different live healthy bacteria Flora
( in your gut).
I am all ears from your experience if you find

one that you are going to try.
keep me posted.
bizi

will do. i had a terrible fall this morning. i almost twisted my ankle and hurt my leg. I can get to the dentist. I was scared at first i couldn't.
love
bobby

Bizi

You can take up to 5 a day. But usually I take 3 a day sometimes I
take 4 or if I have forgotten them for a day or two I take the whole
5. But I also take them all at one time a day. Its easier for me than
splitting them in two times. I got Derrick started too because he
needed them, he does the same.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

i am having such a hard time walking. the dentist office was great. the cleaning didn't hurt and I was told my gums were great. i think it was because of the toothpaste. my anxiety was threw the roof and i was catasphophizing.(sp)

I am always anxious going to the dentist always thinking they are going to tell me terrible news I am so glad to out of there, I usually go 2-3 times a year.They made me a mouth guard to wear at bed but i find I should wear it during the in between clients in the car is when I grind my teeth.
anyway. I am glad that was done for you. one less worry!
love bizi

thanks so much. i usually go every three months but didn't go for months because of the virus. i was so terrified. i am wondering if the aleve for my fall helped me feel not the tiniest bit of pain.
love
bobby

I missed this post. I am so sorry you fell!
love bizi
do you know why?

i bumped into something the kitchen. just took more aleve
love
bobby