thank you everyone for your kind words and support. i've always been a very determined and independant person... well till the rsd set in almost 6 years ago... and this past year i just got completely sick of it ruling my life no matter how much i tried to live a normal life. so i dug down deep and just started going for things again. the bad days are definately worth the independence and the "normal" life. and with the infusions it makes things a lot easier that's for sure! i wish that everyone was able to get good results from them, or at least be able to give them a try. they have def been my "miracle" treatment thus far. thank god since i've gone through everything but the coma pretty much.