Pete........

I am so sorry you were bitten by a rabid system...a wild and crazy injustice...

You're in the very dark of darkness, and I hope you have some sources of light to see you through like an in- person friend or two, who can be with you to listen..to go for a drive if you can, to widen your state of mind, and dilute some of the depression and anger...although as with grief, we have to look at it and be with it before it starts to resolve. Easier said than done..

I hope you can listen to some music that can somewhat soothe you.. music does that..

The pendulum has swung for you to a dark place, so please remember it has to start swinging back into the light..it's a law of physics...

I wish I had something concrete and practical to offer such as 'call your congressman, the American Civil Liberties Union, another attorney, the New York Times....write a letter to you venomous wife to vent....
Hang in, Pete...I hope better thoughts, events, and vibes are near in the future..

..and your faith, however you view it, be with it.
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