I agree. Sometimes I dont think I'm suffering as much as I should be compared to other people. After reading a ton of stuff everyone here has wrote I feel sad, like I'm not suffering enough. I feel like I'm losing everything again. People who are my friends here, suffer worse that I do and I just want to take the pain away from them. If I was the only one suffering in the whole entire world I would be happy. I wouldnt have to see people die, I wouldnt have to see people in pain. Kids would get to run around until they grow old. Adults could live their lives like they were supposed to.

What if by just talking on this site people get even more stressed, more depressed because some people are getting better day by day and they're not? I dont want to hurt people, I want to help. Why do people have to suffer in the first place?

Snowboarder you have a huge heart i can tell. I agree with you 100% It simply just ain't fair.
This forum is so wonderful. Sometimes i'll see a post from someone else who just needs a fellow companion to say "hey man, i know what you're feelin'. We don't have to be experts. It really helps to 'build me back up a little' each time i contribute something positive to someone else's thread.

And Mike , thank you as well! You are SO right. At this point i guess it's obvious the 'cause' of my onset simply is NOT going to present itself.
I'm so sorry to hear how yours began. It hurts my legs to even THINK about going up any stairs at this point.

I remember reading somewhere that once we ACCEPT that this is happening to us, we will go thru a gammet of emotions similar to losing a loved one or a tragic death. There is a grieving process.....then denial......then anger.....saddness/depression..... you know.

Thank you all for your compassion - and please accept mine as well.
Happy Holidays....
Rae

Thank you. I just want to help others, honestly. I know how I feel with this so if I can make someones day better by telling a funny story or something I'm going to do it. I really hope one day that everyone can be pain free once and for all, and if I can be a part of that, I'm happy. If anyone wants to hear a funny story I have plenty and I really hope everyone finds some relief.

-Jeremy-