Thanks for all the encouraging words. Well the kids got off to bed and sleep now. I took my meds but just can't see to find sleep yet. I'm just going to try to make it through the night till my husband comes home in the morning. I'll call the doc then. Its great to have this site and all of you. Thanks so much! Well hopefully off to sleep soon.

What are you taking for sleep? I was on Ambien CR and it quit working for me. Restorative Sleep is imperative to get thru the pain and stay stable.
My Dr. did a 200 person trial study for seroquel XR . It was for fibromyalgia, but found it worked well for sound sleep. He added me to the trial and I generally sleep 10 hours straight. It's a blessing and was able to lower my pain meds and anti-anxiety meds both from 6 to 4 pills per day. The FDA recently just approved it for fibro.
You need some assistance. Do you qualify for state help? My mother in law is 89 and lives in Washington State. We live in Arizona-my husband made arrangement with the State to come in 4 times a week. They clean, grocery shop, and take her to Dr. It's so many hours a week. Really nice arrangement as she has no friends or neighbors to help either.
Hope you can find some assistance. your friend, loretta

Never apologize for 'whining'....! That isn't even in our vocab!
We need each other abrown......we all get those 'meltdown' moments....... And it's ok to question God......my biggest hero in the Bible (besides Jesus of course) is DAVID! Look at how many times he cried out to God in the Psalms!

When these moments come to me, I like to do what I call....
"crawling up in my daddie's lap" Abba Father..... and let the tears flow...... When the kids are in bed asleep and you're alone.....take that time to let those tears go......we need that release.
I'm so glad you've got faith and trust in God.
Please don't let that go......

We're all in this 'together'......
You've been hit with so much here lately.....it IS so hard to comprehend WHY this happens.

I'm going to spend more time in my special 'prayer closet' and do whatever I can to lift you up as a Sister in Christ.....
Things will begin to turn around for you, let's all just stay in agreement on this and God's Word will come to pass.....
try your best not to let 'doubt' creep in .... we have to stand firm my friend......

you've got many friends here pulling together for you.....open up your heart and let these prayers manifest into healing and comfort....

TRULY CARING
Rae