Thank you friends !

Last night I was so upset.....and I know that you all understand how that makes the pain even worse. It was definitely a no sleep night.

Kathy, I still was up after 8 and saw your second post. I didn't make it through the first sentence before I burst out crying again......and went to lay down and snuggle up with my dog. I suddenly felt very peaceful and felt consoled by your words. I really felt the love from a cyber friend.....and know that you all do understand what the pain of rsd is like as well as the frustration of dealing with it.

I slept during the day and have not done any 'work' around the house, so I feel much better now.....physically and mentally. At one point this morning I actually went and double checked my pill box to make sure I hadn't forgotten to put my antidepressants in there, because I was feeling like I was back in my 'dark period' before Zoloft and rsd help.

And ,yes Sandy, I do see a counselor.....although she was away on vacation this week, the nerve of her ! I am in a better place than I was 24 hours ago though......and know that I can't change the past, but I sure as heck can change the chore schedule for the future.

I tried a new tactic this evening. This morning I reminded them that they still had to finish cleaning up from last nights dinner either before school or after. My husband usually serves dinner promptly at 5 pm. By 7 pm, the 16 yo was starving and looking for dinner. My usual would be to yell, or start taking away electronics to punish for not doing his work, but I just calmy said, "Oh, we're having chicken caesar salad, but I need the salad bowl to make it. Unfortunately, someone forgot to run the dishwasher or clean off the counter, so I can't make it yet. He just walked away.....but by 8:30 he and his brother started working.

For some comic relief.......16 yo plays guitar and bass and had several very large amps and speakers in the family room. I said they had to be moved, to his room or the garage or I would put them outside and not care if they were rained on. While I was still in bed today, he moved them. It really was like he thought he should get an award for being so brilliant because he thought of the bright idea of putting them under the dining room table, where they are hidden by the tablecloth. I went to check out his work and they were hidden. Unfortunately, he left the chairs all scattered all over the room. I went to pull the chairs back up to/under the table.....they don't fit ! So they just stick out taking up a huge amount of room. He really truely can't figure out why I don't like his new arrangement !

Thank you friends for your support !

Finz sometimes a person needs a good cry to get the emotions out. I do agree that stress does impact us a lot. I am having a lot of family problems too and the range of emotions I am feeling is very hard. It is like it takes all my strength to fight the daily pain so to take on more is hard.
I am glad you are feeling in a better place. Has your family ever thought of doing family therapy or could maybe your current therapist have a session with everyone? I did this with my family and for us it did not work out so great but I don't regret doing it.I learned a lot about how I feel and how to cope better. I also know families that it really helped. I think when something impacts a family to talk about the feelings,what each person needs are,etc can really help.
Hope today is better