[polarisgold]

Shocking title but I've already planned a way I just can't bring myself to do it due to my faith. I don't want to meet God in person that way. The Bible says nothing about suicide maybe because some circumstances its the only option. I'd also hate my wife and daughter to deal with my death. Problem is at this point I believe that is my future.

I aquired RSD in '98 after twisting my ankle. The pain slowly progressed to the point, after there years, of being unable to were shoes. Now I walk as little as possible, less than a hundred feet a day, to the car and back. Sleeping is becoming more difficult. I spend about 4 or 5 hours in bed and a few more in my lounge chair. Waking up with pain and dreading the day is getting way too old!

My pain was originally in my left foot and is spreading to my right foot and both arms.

We almost declared bankrupcey due to the doctors milking every drop of money from us. I'm now on Medicaid and finally headed to a pain doctor on 8/27/12. I've been taking 100mg of Tramadol and 600mg of Lyrica three times a day just to ease the pain while sitting down. While walking the pain meds do very little.

I'm running out of options just to stay in the picture. I'm fighting to stay out of a wheelchair and can't stand the thought. I'd rather just rot away in my lounge chair.

I've tried all the AMA approved treatments plus Hbot, Giant 4' electric magnents, the Water Cure, and becoming Vegan. If you know of anything else I'd love to hear it!!!!