I look back on all my short years . I have worked since I was 9, when I was in college I held one full time job and 2-3 part time jobs basically living out of my car just to make a buck.started a family young(always struggled) but that was alright, god would see us through what we need, I always believed that still do. my fourth child was concieved and all of a sudden im having surgery once a year then a work accident , followed by this last accident. and in the beginning of this injury I said to myself .."god is telling me to slow down" but now my younger boys are crying( why cant you) my daughter is finnaly at the stage of her life where she truly can use a "complete" father . and I find myself asking.what is the point of it all now what is the lesson to be learned. It is in there I know it is. I get to meet people with good hearts, such as yourselves here. I can see more clear the world around us. and I am sure there is more. but the price of these lessons is huge . and it is worse because my children have to pay part of it.
sorry that came from left field, the mind drifts on auto pilot sometimes. what I really wanted to say is thank you all and god bless