[sue k]

i've had it. i just can't live like this anymore. i just want to feel good for one day. i know we are good people. your all so kind, why did this happen to us?
are we being punished for something? i don't mean to feel sorry for myself, i just don't know what to do. everyone here just can't understand how i feel. they think i should just be able to do everything. no one helps. all i ever here is"go to bed". I'am sick of bed. sorry, just had to vent. you guys are the best.

love sue k.

[Desi]

Hi Sue! Sounds like you need to call me hun! I am going to PM you now and give you my phone no. PLEASE REVERSE the charges, as I have unlimuted long distance on my telephone no. I will be waiting for your call, Love, Desi

[Linmarie]

Hi Sue,
Next to the pain, the worst thing for me is what I can't do anymore. It is so depressing to think about what I can't do & wish I could. I, too, wish for a good day. It sounds like you don't have much support. I really feel for you because I know that makes it worse.
No, we are not being punished. When I first got RSD, I used to wonder what I ever did that was so bad that I deserved this. I don't know why we get RSD.
I hope you are feeling better. I want to say "hang in there" and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I wish I could say more to help you.
Linmarie

[rashelle]

Sorry to here about your pain. I do understand. Iwill pray for you . Rashelle

[HopeLivesHere]

I am sorry you are suffering so much. I know that pain. When treatments didn't help, medications didn't help and I'd suffered for over 5 years, I got the intrathecal pump My biggest question was why did I wait so long to get it ?

I never gave it a thought that I was being punished. I did, however, realize that I may never know in my lifetime why it happened to me. It was easier to accept it than fight it. The hardest for me was losing my career
I hope you get some relief soon and also will keep you in prayer.
Hope

[lostmary]

Sue,
I wish I knew the words to make it right. Just know that we are all here for you and we are all in the same boat. If you need to vent, cry, or scream you can do that with us. we will not judge you, just listen and give you gentle hugs.
Mary

[theoneRogue420]

Sue, I sure wish there was something I could say or do to help... there just isn't. I'm feeling the same way as you right now, and Michael doesn't understand it either. No one can, till they've lived with this kind of pain on a daily basis.

I'll offer you spoons and gentle .... I know they don't help much, but they are all I have to offer.

[Betsy Fish]

Hello to everyone... I am writing because about 3 years ago my daughter developed more severe pain than normal.. A year ago she was told finally it was RSD.. She went through the program in Pittsburgh,PA for extensive therapy as per Dr. Sherry believes in.. She was home for two weeks and then started with inability to walk on crutches to w/c.. Nobody could touch her. SHe is 15.. Then within a few weeks she had dystonic movements we all thought it was a seizure.. Through admission to Cleveland Clinic and UPMC['s numerous times she was told it was in her head... I know it's not and that has caused her to get more depressed and anxious/frustrated.. Well, this is a short version/ she had a NG tube put in because now it is whole body dystonic movements.. It seems when the pain is unbearable the dystonia flares more.. She is on oxygen at intervals and bedtime.. She gets dead weight when the episodes accur.. We are treating in SOuth Carolina because nobody around here sees anyone under 18 or is unfamilier with RSD etc.. I truely believe it was the extensive therapy that caused the complications... If you look up complications of RSD it is what she has... Peripheral Arterial Disease , Dystonia, etc... I am very upset with the community not able to help at all and the drs around here unfamilier with the diseases.. The only thing now is she was told its not rsd after 1 1/2 years and that its psychogenic.. I wish that there was a given diagnostic test for proof... She would love to be a normal 15 yr old.. She never knows weather or not she will be in a w/c or walking.. or total care or able to do for herself.. She gets nerve blocks and numerous injections.. Sympathetic electrical blocks etc.. She has damaged nerves in her feet/ low back/ muscle weakness throughout her body/ vision trouble at times/ hearing problems amplified/she has had botox/myobloc for the contrations.. Any support or groups known of in PA?? I am at wits end.. Its costly and is draining us..i have been her caregiver for months now and unable to work.. Please any info or has anyone else had these problems respond
Betsy

[theoneRogue420]

Betsy, Sandel moved your post to it's own thread, it's called "moved post, new member needs help"

Several of us have already responded I hope we help a bit.

[dreambeliever128]

I too use to ask the question what did I do to deserve this. I've delt with health problems since 87, not just RSD, but I use to think it was punishment for something I did wrong.

I have been in councelling for over 7 years and just had a Vegal Nerve Stimulator put in for depression in April. Most know my story here since I've been on here for years and I won't go into any of my medical history but with the RSD my depression became worse to the point I was suicidal. That's when my Dr. stepped in and started counceling me and helping me through the guilt feeling. I always felt guilty because I couldn't take care of my family like I should have. I don't get the attitudes from my family that a lot get here. It bothers me that people don't get the support they need from their family.

What's bad though, even with that support with the RSD it doesn't seem to keep a person going.

I will PM my phone no. also and if you want to talk PM me back. I have unlimited calling also.

You don't have to go through this alone there are too many good people on here that are willing to help you get through the hardest times alone.

Hang in there,
Ada