Debi, thanks for sharing that outing. I've been trying to go to a local minor league baseball game all summer. And look.. whoops, low and behold, their season is over. My CRPS would not let me go this year.. AGAIN!

Yet, the good news is!!! wait.. the Great news is!!! I went out to eat with my son and then to a movie with my daughter yesterday. That was the first half way decent day that I've had, since about early June. I was so thrilled to be able to go. Yet, last night beginning at about 8:00 and then all through the night until about 5:00 a.m. I paid the price for leaving the house. My CRPS has spread through out my entire body. So, my right wrist swelled up and had that deep hot hurt all night long. I just laid still sobbed and celebrated that I was actually able to do something with my son and daughter! I was thrilled and was quite willing to suffer. The reward was so so great. It out weighed the pain.

As far as saying goodbye to my friends, I would say that I am doing better with letting them slip away (or say goodbye) than I used to. I've slowly grown to realize that it is ok for people to come and go due to this disease. And I try not to kick myself in my own pants for not being able to maintain those relationships any longer. But... errrr... honestly!! it really isn't easy. I value these friends. These are some really great people. But, I also realize, I can't schedule and then have to reschedule with them forever due to this disease, and then eventually just have to cancel. That just isn't fair to these great people.

#kicks the empty tin can

-Spike-