Thanks for thinking of me. One thing I can say for sure over the years we have been together from the old forum to here, there are a lot of us that have formed such a bond that is as strong as family. Sometimes stronger. LOL

I emailed you first as soon as I opened up my emails. Had over 200 to deal with. I can't wait to hear about your trip. I do hope most all of it was good. I think any good we get out of our lives dealing with the pain in between is good. My kids have offered me a trip back home but at this point I won't do it. I want to be able to enjoy myself, right now I couldn't and I don't want to go there and pull anyone else down. My step-daughter wants me down there so badly. When I talk to her and my step-son though I can't help but think of Bill even more. I'm having trouble dealing with things and places we saw and did in the past when I see them now. The hardest part for me is the trip we use to take every summer to this one town. I didn't get to make it this year and also the trip through the mountain to see the aspens turning. I enjoyed having my sister up for a visit though.

I did finish that book. "The Power of Now" that my Dr. got me. It was a hard book to understand at times but part of it helped me. It's a selp help book. I'm lending it to a friend that wants to read it. Her therapist recommended it to her. She says a lot people she knows is reading it. When I get it back from her I will read it again to help understand it more. Sometimes it takes me a lot to understand things I read. I am getting better at it though.

Thanks to you Sue for welcoming me back. The break was good. I did get some things done. With school out this summer, I spent a lot of time with my boys. I have a treadmill now so I am using it everyday if just for a little bit. It seems it's easier to use then walking on concrete. I sure can't do that anymore.

As I said before I was so glad to see everyone on here, knowing they are doing as well as possible and sorry that the new ones have had to come on here due to the pain that just never has an end.

Ada