I too do not drive now. I can get dressed most days and my pain meds usually or initially you couldnt really notice but now you can mostly memory lossing my place altogether in big ways. And when tired i am wobbly but i belive that is the rsd in my legs. I have never felt high from meds and always have a level of pain even with them. I would be bedridden if it werent for the high dose ketamine i did and would have collasped mentally long ago i was on the verge. I was bedridden prior to my coma.I too can not judge Paula- I watched her show , reality show and half her spine is metal. Also the poor girl apparently never gets to eat.! She is driven and she would have to be on around the clock pain meds and then some-as I belivie she is- to keep going. She seems to be hoping to get her life back to where it once was I too still pray for that as unrealistic as it seems to be as I approach year 5. take care, cz