Well things aren't getting any better. This past friday night my husband was on his way to work when the engine basically blew up. I don't know how else to explain it. Parts were flying out from under the car smoke rolling outta the hood and then the brakes also went out when this happened. I was forced to resign from my job, due to lack of vehicle. That was our only car. My husband is at least still working, only because he can carpool with someone. I thought the pain in my arm and leg was bad before well since having to walk everywhere the pain is worse. My fingers have been doing some massive muscle spasims, I get spasims in my leg and arm as well but its not as severe as my fingers. My arm never really turned red or purple did once in a while but now its doing it more and more and its mostly when I'm up moving around. The bruising I had on my hand back in June that I couldn't explain where it came from is back. One good thing is my right eye is still some what dried out but not red, and its not as irratating as it used to be. I wanna find another job close to home and the WC nurse said that I didn't have to tell them about my injury, but I'm afraid that if I don't and they find out they would fire me. I really don't know what to do.

when it rains it pours - it must be true...
Hope you can find answers for those troubles soon...

This may or may not be helpful, but it's something that I always hold onto. I am the queen of terrible luck. One of my best friends had this theory that I was some slave driver princess in a former life and I am reaping that karma in this life! But somehow this bad luck always seems to come in threes. So when those first two things come- like the car blowing up and the RSD being out of control, I tell myself that that third thing has already happened. Not that its coming, but that its already happened. And I go back through everything and I find it. I burnt the toast. I stepped on the cat's tail. Got soap in my eyes in the shower. OK! Great! That third thing has already happened, so everything has got to start getting better. Bad luck comes in threes, well alright- I've had my threes and now it's time for things to start looking up.
I wouldn't say I'm the most optimistic person at all. I know that this sounds like fairies and glitter and nonsense quite frankly, but when I'm rejoicing over the burnt toast it's usually through tears and snot. And then I decide to pick myself up one more time and make a go of it. If you fake it enough times, if you go through the motions enough, sometimes it becomes real. Smile enough and after the hundredth time you might mean it.
I hope that this helps a bit and more than anything, I hope that this doesn't come off condescending. That's the last thing that I would want to do to you, because that's the last thing that you need right now. But I hope that this convinces you to hold on a little longer and try to "fake it to make it" a bit. Sometimes it works.
Lynn

Please check out Byron Katie online. Her approach has helped me when I've felt I just couldn't take anymore. Best of luck. Pam