May I just say Thank You for the very kind words. See - I knew that finding you all again would help me get through these trying times. I know I would find folks who have been through what I'm going through and who would be willing to share. It makes sooo much of a difference. Everyday when I wake up and open my eyes I lay there and wonder what the day will bring. Good, bad? It is almost scary at times. Guess the biggest obstacle for me to overcome has been dealing with denial! I just never in a million years would have thought that by the age of 43 I would be in the "boat" I'm in. But I feel rest assured that I need not worry about facing these daily struggles as long as I have my friends like you Allen. That also goes for The Artist, Roz , Good N Plenty and everyone else. Such a void has been in my life without the forum. I really don't need a forum as long as I can keep in touch with all of you but it sure does help. Unfortunately I cannot get onto the computer everyday because my hands get so nonfunctional, but I will try to as often as I can. In the meantime... Chin Up!!!!

Mark