From Breezy55: "Do what you believe in and believe in what you do... all else is a waste of energy and time" -- Nisargadatta. I cannot believe these people are playing so many games with your head and your heart! I know you are a self motivated man. Who does not enjoy conflick,who does? Stick to yur guns and load up with positive thoughts! We are all with you on this one! As far as killing ones self? You know in your heart that will not help this situation. Also the other side will view this as a victory for them! Please go on and fight for this and for all of us that LOVE YOU!! We all know that you are your own hero,so go ahead and be one. If not for yourself then who? Please take a look a the Title again. BLOWN OFF! You do not what to be remembered by this. Be Remembered for who you really are, a survirer Love To You! Breezy55