Thanks, Rae and Mark.

I truly hope that that one little comment doesn't stop this from happening.. if it does, I will be very upset.

I'm hoping it's not a huge deal. It sure feels like it is, though.. right now at least.

I hate that I have to wait until October 6th now to hear... waiting is no fun for anyone.

I feel like I was able to be so positive--and not because I was lying, but because I do not struggle with depression and anxiety (except with those shots, of course) and I am hopeful and positive. He didn't seem to think I was in any pain because I didn't bring my wheelchair in. Well, if I would have, I wouldn't have been able to use it anyway! I figured it was not worth my mom having to haul it out of the trunk (she is feeling awful today) for just a few steps inside. I knew I could sit down (and thought I would be able to elevate my legs... but obviously that didn't go as planned). I only went up and down the steps because I didn't have a choice--his office is downstairs. He made a comment as I was leaving about how well I was getting around.

Yes, I am more mobile than I was earlier this summer. Is that because I am in any less pain? Heck no. It's because I have been forced to get up and do things on my own because my mom is at work all day and I have nobody here to help me. I have no choice but to "be mobile" and "move around" when needed. Just because I'm not paralyzed doesn't mean I'm not in pain! People can be in pain and yet run a marathon--I've had friends who have done that! I certainly couldn't... but I digress.

Overall he was nice, and understood most of what I said... he was one of the few who knew what I meant when I said I have numbness yet incredible pain and that doesn't make sense because I always thought numbness=no sensation, even pain. I don't mean to make him out to be a bad guy... he was really kind. But it is frustrating when at the end of all that, the only thing he could recite back to me is that I have anxiety about a shot in my back. So what? It was just a frustrating day.. and I sure hope that this doesn't end the process, but I just have a bad feeling that it may.

Thanks for the hugs, love, support, understanding, and caring. You guys truly are wonderful. I am so thankful that God has put each of you in my life! <3