Well, as everyone knows I have had a very bad and stressful week. But I am finally starting to feel better because I made an important decision. I have been very concerned with who would do the surgery and if I could trust them, well I decided that I do not trust them and I am finally switching everything over to the pain doctor I like for good I found out that surgeon I saw only has done a couple paddle leads surgeries and to me that does not feel right and also he made me very uncomfortable and did not handle my questions very seriously. I thought that if I just made myself stay with them it would be done faster but in reality I have to listen to myself and really do what is right for me! I was afraid to make that change because I was worried about making everyone mad but honestly, it should be about me and my health for once and who is to say that after surgery, she will even keep up with my pain? I gave her chances and since this is her second surgery that moved it just makes more sense to go with the doctor that finally made me feel comfortable and actually helped me! So, I am going to call his office on Monday and get everything switched over and then have him and whatever surgeon he works with (that has done lots of paddle leads) will be in charge of my surgery. I mean this is a huge deal because this surgery is going to give me back my life again, so I should not just trust it to anyone. I just wanted to let you all know and I appreciate the support and encouragement I am sorry for having all of that drama with everything lately, I should have just listened to myself Have a good weekend! Take care'sTara!