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12-22-2012, 03:22 PM | #431 | |||
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is it my lesson have i not given you myself you come before all i am being pushed in a horrible way my blessings are you had me wake for another day i have to be honest i did not want to wake the truth be told i would not want it any other way Gerry my dear friend thank you for reminding me the deceiver at it's best when my father took his life how much pain must he have been in although a cowardly way leaving us behind he too must have suffered and his evil ways with me and sister he had to have known i was ready to confront him about it i had left home at that point on my own since seventeen married my ex as an escape what did i know about love that came when my children were given to me lonely i am now this body broken this body once strong and could do so so much blessings my children and life went on and they grew up as Corissa was still a baby my children were accepting of her arrival she didn't want to come out went 42 weeks before induced she was the only one that stayed in me that she was just so comfortable just staying lonely i am now for there was no such luck i would find someone i could trust and love trust and love was one thing someone that would not harm them in the manner i was by him couldn't take the chance blessings my children and now grandchild my will to live even with my blessings in family i think of no more pain of any kind to know that they still need me as they reached the years 31 29 28 and 13 with grandchild focus on blessings has been a place of finding i am not alone blessings to know others are suffering what was he going through just before he pulled the trigger he was parked around the corner a view to the kitchen what kind of pain caused him to take his life as he to was a addict and drank to pass out there were always parties at my parents home work defined him as he was a machinist along with his two brothers he was an amputee his left leg just below the knee as a young extremely handsome man i remember it being a problem with the woman i call my mother she too to date is beautiful just had no business having children oh the f.....g dynamics of this family all around my heroin addicted sister 50 trying so hard too clean up her act my nephew a straight A ST. PETERS PREP. ALL BOYS statistics say he too must watch himself my younger sister 43 a cocaine addict i a recovering alcoholic since entering A.A. in 1990 for the rest of my life and now to be a slave to these meds took that all away and even though my A.A.family knows me i cannot allow my self a moment of accepting it's okay Eva you need them so therefore since i have been put on med of such concern i always introduce myself as a new comer blessed to be a family of A.A. and a family here tomorrow is Sunday i make my Sunday meetings as it is my home group i'll be there with daughter who has completed a rehab facility a year only to have taken them in with no apartment her choice of drug Angle dust once a addict always an addict she calls it the Devils dirt now meds missing again she confessed the first time and the situation now is uncomfortable my eldest child epileptic must take i cannot begin to tell you how many meds she has gone through and what she is taking now and that is after a lobotomy of the lobe removed controls eyesight is now blind this was the trade off and hope of decreasing the meds her surgery failed as she still suffers seizures then has a VNS THIS DEVICE REBOOTS THE BRAIN WHEN SHE FEELS A SEIZURE COMING ON WAVES A SPECIAL MAGNET SHE MUST WEAR AT ALL TIMES my son now says he is not doing drugs as he is on lithium he too dabbled big time with heroin pills drinking AND THAT IS THAT THE DEMON EXISTS IN ALL OF US YA THINK GENES HAVE A BIG SAY IN IT it's taken so lightly blessings i held it somewhat together demons demons demons as we are responsible it could be i did my best what has come over me is i am tired of the fight trying to do what i can and pray DEAR GOD HEAR OUR PRAYERS i still need to rear Corissa her dad falls short many times shame on him and i make sure he knows it i'm getting tired of rambling it all means something to me and i will continue to pray the deceiver will not prevail focus on blessings as my friend told me you must forgive honestly and let it go let it go thank my friend thank you sweet Mother Mary as you get ready for his coming Amen I WISH A MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND A BLESSING OF A HAPPY NEW YEAR SOMEONE WHO CARES
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12-24-2012, 10:41 AM | #432 | |||
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Dear God
thank you for another day as it is the Eve and as Mary prepares the coming of the Lord and Joseph awaits too it is Mary who defines Motherhood to raise a child with affection as a verb the Love of child is a LOVE that supersedes all kinds of Love something has captured you for life the moment life comes from our womb where it all begins a MIRACLE is what it is THE MIRACLE OF LIFE AND HE IS BORN our Savior who gave us the Our Father free will his life in the end so for our sins we have life what to do love one another be kind to one another do not assume as you the first three letters most certainly do apply to those who do that look real hard in the mirror don't judge FORGIVE truly a mother i am blessed i am AMEN! TO ALL AROUND THE WORLD BLESSINGS someone who cares
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12-24-2012, 10:13 PM | #433 | |||
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12-24-2012, 10:15 PM | #434 | |||
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Merry Christmas! Mark56 |
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12-24-2012, 10:34 PM | #435 | |||
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The waiting is o'er
stars parted for more as Mary immaculate came delivered Jesus' name showing all her devotion to what seemed angelic notion then matured into divine a Savior for all time Who came that we may know the Lord and to pray humbled brought forth for we who would drop to bended knee sharing all in His gift that our spirits be given lift yes, the Eve has arrived Jesus come for sacrifice. Eva, we live and love and hurt and agonize over SO VERY MUCH. There are even hurts borne in hearts not opened to gaze except God's love which is given to us by grace. A mere seven years ago, a young college girl was brutally murdered one of the many cousins on my Mom's side of the family. She was so very similar in countenance and appearance even unto our dear daughter who is just now the age which was the age at which my cousin's life was cut short. It was not warfare, It was not cultural revolution, It was not theft of property, It was nothing more than the deceiver most vile rupturing the heart of a man who likely never heard of the saving grace at which we marvel tonight. Among things I have pondered, I assuredly pondered a means to visit upon the transgressor a much more personal means of vengeance to wrest from his mean spirit, his dark smitten soul, some tiny fragment of fear just before he might breathe his last. Vengeance. I felt hate, anger, rage, desire and a lust for vengeance...... likely thinking such a being is due nothing more. Among the things I have had to let go.... because it is God's province, not mine, was this, and the rage I felt toward an illegal alien whose presence on I-70 one morning began the cascade of events which ruined the body of the man immediately behind me, and also me...... humpty dumpty am I. I had to give it up, because in the blessed PEACE and LOVE which is Christ I could not love if I bore hate. Am I sure this will always be my case? Will I always yield such matters of the heart to Christ? I shall surely try, so I may freely come upon invitation to your place, and savor moments spent on that porch of yours gazing at the skyline at night taking in the twinkling of lights. May the Peace of the Lord always be with you, Agape, Mark56 |
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12-25-2012, 12:22 AM | #436 | |||
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please anytime as i am still on leave what a visit would that be thanks for sharing blessed to know you
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12-25-2012, 01:01 AM | #437 | |||
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knowing one another is definitely one of those Blessings which runs in all directions.... omnidirectional! Merry Christmas! Mark56 |
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12-25-2012, 09:42 AM | #438 | |||
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Dear God
Thank you for another day MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND ALL SING HAPPY BIRTHDAY someone who cares
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12-25-2012, 05:32 PM | #439 | |||
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12-26-2012, 04:25 AM | #440 | ||
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Well what a beautiful day we had here in our new home on Christmas Day
All my family and two grandchildren are here. It was just lovely and I didn't think three weeks ago that the place would be in any way ready for this great celebration. But it came together and we had a wonderful day/night I look forward to many many more happy years here with my beautiful family at Christmas time and every day too and I Thank God for making it happen. Wishing you all peace and happiness. Jackie |
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