Bred out of them to be more pleasing to fragrance sensitivity.
I miss it.

Prayin for ya, I am,

Our bodies are racked with pain; but for the sake of God who helps us make it thru each day; we wait for His call.

Speaking from experience; my mother had so much anger for my Dad which lasted all her life. Her anger I constantly heard. It brought me saddness and depression at an early age. She always made sure I knew all his faults; what he did or didn't do. For the Grace of God, I thanked Him for not letting me give up on my father as I watched his casket lowered into the ground. I tried some years ago to let my mother know the depression her words had caused me......Her answer was: "How do you think I feel"!!

I have heard the "flutter" of Ginnie's angels. I would imagine you have heard them too.

I pray the physical and mental anguish we are going through be lessened and a better tomorrow awaits us.

Love & Prayers,

Gerry

my dear Gerry

Corissa is exposed to the truth
about her dad because of himself
and what went on accusing her
of sleeping with a taste of his
accusation started by her younger sisters
and this is not the issue at hand
it was in the manner he referred to
her and how he doesn't want around
the younger ones
well not having it no mam
she has put up with enough
never made her graduation
now not even a call a card
for her birthday
when she talks to me about
it the pain comes through
loud and clear
she is innocent
i am her parent
he wrote and told
her he's done with me and her
so not cool!

someone who cares

Believe me, Eva, I know the hurt and hurt for Corissa as well. He's not worth mentioning. My mother was hurting so reminding me of what he did or didn't do; only hurt me more.

It actually bothered my mother more when, after I got married, he now wanted to come and visit since I had a place of my own. After all these years, he wanted to be part of my life. It made for a lot of tension between my Mother and myself; but I couldn't refuse his visits. I could have reminded him "where were you when I was younger"; but I didn't. As I mentioned; I was glad; I thanked God I did not let the hurt come between us as his casket was being lowered.

I can only imagine how hearbreaking this is for you.

My parents, tho unintentionally, did teach me "unconditional love", which in turn I was able to pass on to my children. I just pray daily for God's grace to overcome anger and resentment. Otherwise; no one wins.

Enduring all the pain you are in and trying to be there for all your children; and of course, Little Eva, has to be God's plan for you.

As always,
Love & Prayers,
Gerry

oh my dearest Gerry

you hit the nail on the head
now you understand
as i too have a estranged
parent who still lives
as dear dad took the road
himself
TOOK JUST ONE SHOT
THROUGH THE HEART
you finally get it my purpose
in life is to be there for my children
they are still in such turmoil
i know you have my back as you
know you have i have yours
take my shoulder
hold my hand whenever you
need to my spirit of God the
Father my Savior is the one woh
dictates my life
i am responsible
as his Son gave us free will
i'm responsible
this much i know
i have learned
through my experiences
i have help for my ailments
limited but there
i have a 12 step program
it was in AA that 20 odd years ago
trial and error
received the Spirit
and Angels my spot in the world
and although i,I am responsible
for my happiness
of many who have come
in and out of my life
are not just by chance
meeting those here was
by me doing homework
on my condition
this beautiful wonderful
place i call my 2nd home
Corissa as you were paying
close attention is just an example
it hurt her that she was the one
to get served the papers
reading what he wrote
and it hurt her immensely
that he misspelled her name
then we have Christine and Baby here
for now
then we have Saraeve and
high school sweetheart
now her husband still not
working as she will soon be on SSI
living with his parents for the past 6 months
she is going nuts
and i will never understand
how is it i was always able
to find work may it be waitressing
waiting tables always work
from bus boys who may i add
do very well when you respect
their job they appreciated the tips
i gave and in turn did many things
that allowed me to pick-up more tables
='s more tips = more for the bus boy
but ohhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooo
it is beneath him
yes he acquired a education with
a loan mechanics
2 year school nothing
he is now educated in some
kind of computer repairs
contracted out nada zip nothing
i was approved food stamps
for Corissa and myself
after oncologist appointment
went to the food stamp department
my worker said it was mailed
got home sure enough there it was
with retro first allotment is $250.00
and $152.00 there after
called Saraeve told her she can shop $75.00
worth of food for herself
and gave her access to use if if it's there
now why i ask you my friend should he
be allowed a lucrative business
nothing i am after ever all involved
know this to be true
from the moment she was born
i was not going to lie about i did
not know where he lived
and all hell broke loose May of 98'
when in court for child support
i have written enough times before
well the minimum payment was $63.00
a week
again i have written before
how the Judge was hip to his try
claiming business is not doing well
note:in 98' business was booming
he was ordered to submit his last
two years of returns
never went anywhere
Corissa became very ill
at 3/12 months old
after getting a disease specialist
Dr. Michael Lamocia (off on spelling
doesn't look right) anywho
the point
pay minimum until she was thirteen
i lost my ability to work
he then picked it up to
$100.00 a week
and i said i need an additional
$50.00 a MONTH LET US BREAK
THAT DOWN WEEKLY $12.25.WHATEVER
$112.50 A WEEK not a complaint not after his money
however to have a lucrative business
in the DOMINIC REPUBLIC INSTALLING
WATER SYSTEM ALLOWING IT IN THE HOME
AS MY EX- HUSBAND WORKED FOR G.M.
and pulled his stunt
YES, yes i am responsible
never keeping them from their father
but guess what
it wasn't their priority
they were always after me
and when it was over it is
something in their persona
they cannot handle
yes i can be confrontational
relentless for the TRUTH
my demeanor is never vindictive
and it is read differently
well now
what to do
she is fifteen
it is bad enough she is
going through just the
15teen year old struggles
and woes
i most certainly am needed
my purpose is to still be a full
time mom
my son
haven't heard from him
since day before
mothers day
PURPOSE
A MOTHER FOR LIFE
AND PRAY AND PRAY
THEY COME OUT DOING
WELL on there own


still hanging on
it is what it is
work with what
is given in the day
my health is what
slowed everything
changed everything
did my homework
have doctors that are
and will be permanently
in my life
along with the
preventative doctors
have become difficult
Christine will be taking
the drivers test and will
work on taking courses in
home health care she has a
desire to work and go to
school
don't have to tell you
how the workers rarely
take interest in the job they
do
i will push until i cannot go
anymore
i am posting don't want to loose it all
and will continue
love

oh my dearest Gerry

you hit the nail on the head
now you understand
as i too have a estranged
parent who still lives
as dear dad took the road
himself
TOOK JUST ONE SHOT
THROUGH THE HEART
you finally get it my purpose
in life is to be there for my children
they are still in such turmoil
i know you have my back as you
know you have i have yours
take my shoulder
hold my hand whenever you
need to my spirit of God the
Father my Savior is the one woh
dictates my life
i am responsible
as his Son gave us free will
i'm responsible
this much i know
i have learned
through my experiences
i have help for my ailments
limited but there
i have a 12 step program
it was in AA that 20 odd years ago
trial and error
received the Spirit
and Angels my spot in the world
and although i,I am responsible
for my happiness
of many who have come
in and out of my life
are not just by chance
meeting those here was
by me doing homework
on my condition
this beautiful wonderful
place i call my 2nd home
Corissa as you were paying
close attention is just an example
it hurt her that she was the one
to get served the papers
reading what he wrote
and it hurt her immensely
that he misspelled her name
then we have Christine and Baby here
for now
then we have Saraeve and
high school sweetheart
now her husband still not
working as she will soon be on SSI
living with his parents for the past 6 months
she is going nuts
and i will never understand
how is it i was always able
to find work may it be waitressing
waiting tables always work
from bus boys who may i add
do very well when you respect
their job they appreciated the tips
i gave and in turn did many things
that allowed me to pick-up more tables
='s more tips = more for the bus boy
but ohhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooo
it is beneath him
yes he acquired a education with
a loan mechanics
2 year school nothing
he is now educated in some
kind of computer repairs
contracted out nada zip nothing
i was approved food stamps
for Corissa and myself
after oncologist appointment
went to the food stamp department
my worker said it was mailed
got home sure enough there it was
with retro first allotment is $250.00
and $152.00 there after
called Saraeve told her she can shop $75.00
worth of food for herself
and gave her access to use if if it's there
now why i ask you my friend should he
be allowed a lucrative business
nothing i am after ever all involved
know this to be true
from the moment she was born
i was not going to lie about i did
not know where he lived
and all hell broke loose May of 98'
when in court for child support
i have written enough times before
well the minimum payment was $63.00
a week
again i have written before
how the Judge was hip to his try
claiming business is not doing well
note:in 98' business was booming
he was ordered to submit his last
two years of returns
never went anywhere
Corissa became very ill
at 3/12 months old
after getting a disease specialist
Dr. Michael Lamocia (off on spelling
doesn't look right) anywho
the point
pay minimum until she was thirteen
i lost my ability to work
he then picked it up to
$100.00 a week
and i said i need an additional
$50.00 a MONTH LET US BREAK
THAT DOWN WEEKLY $12.25.WHATEVER
$112.50 A WEEK not a complaint not after his money
however to have a lucrative business
in the DOMINIC REPUBLIC INSTALLING
WATER SYSTEM ALLOWING IT IN THE HOME
AS MY EX- HUSBAND WORKED FOR G.M.
and pulled his stunt
YES, yes i am responsible
never keeping them from their father
but guess what
it wasn't their priority
they were always after me
and when it was over it is
something in their persona
they cannot handle
yes i can be confrontational
relentless for the TRUTH
my demeanor is never vindictive
and it is read differently
well now
what to do
she is fifteen
it is bad enough she is
going through just the
15teen year old struggles
and woes
i most certainly am needed
my purpose is to still be a full
time mom
my son
haven't heard from him
since day before
mothers day
PURPOSE
A MOTHER FOR LIFE
AND PRAY AND PRAY
THEY COME OUT DOING
WELL on there own


still hanging on
it is what it is
work with what
is given in the day
my health is what
slowed everything
changed everything
did my homework
have doctors that are
and will be permanently
in my life
along with the
preventative doctors
have become difficult
Christine will be taking
the drivers test and will
work on taking courses in
home health care she has a
desire to work and go to
school
don't have to tell you
how the workers rarely
take interest in the job they
do
i will push until i cannot go
anymore
i am posting don't want to loose it all
and will continue
love
WELL CAME BACK WROTE ANOTHER
LONG CONTINUE
LOST IT ALL
to tired to do it all over

with much love

someone who cares

Eva,

Many years ago my son gave me a little blackish colored oblong mirror with a slit to hold it up on a little wood stand. I have kept it on my dressor for twenty years or more. Really cute. It has an outline in pink, on the blackish colored mirror, of a woman in a pink dress with her hand outstretched to a small child, also in pink. Framing them are little pink hearts on both sides. Just above their outline are the words:
A mother holds
her children's hands
for a little while....
their hearts forever.

Thought this would bring a smile.

With Love & Prayers,
Gerry

and you know it did
forever a friend
thank you dearest friend

dear God
dear Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

blessings
today is a tough one dear God
as you already know
i hope i may get through
this day as the phone is ringing off
the hook
thank you for helping me with my anger
right now i cannot allow
anymore pain inside
hollow me out piece by piece
fill it with nonsense so i could
smile and laugh
blessed i am to see the smile
of my angel Eva
please spare her from
any disease
this family has
including her mother
she is on her way back
help her see the damage
and threats Eva's father
is dangerous not to provoke
him
angels watch over them
all of them
it is a rough world
may they find you
easily
in Jesus name
AMEN!

someone who cares

IN all things, amen.