I too have struggled with faith, especially as health continues to decline. I am trying my hardes to still latch on to the thread I still have. I went to a concert last night. I went in the wheelchair. It is starting not to bother me as much. I had fun, but watching everyone dance and jump brought me to tears several times. I realize I am lucky to be alive, but I want to be me who was running 5 miles a day not me struggles to walk to the bathroom with tremors and spasms with 2 spinal cord stimulators and pays for any big activity the next day. Today, I'm in bed. I hope to get some of my old life back. I keep filling out apps to teach again, and my husband says when I can't sit up for long periods or walk, it will be near impossible to work the 7-8 hour days teaching requires plus all the extra. I will try and find a way.

Keep swimming is all I say!!