Mark you rock!!

Another day
another opportunity to BE.
Not so bad in the context
of living through pains we endure, eh?
We may reach out
and touch someone of significance
and say
thank you for Being

Sweet,

sweet it is
thank you for
being
me

Unfolds the Blessing of You BEING....
Ahhhh.... yes,
you Bless us all.

Great big z
Me

Father
Mother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

you we rejoice
our Holy Brother
i love with the reminder
with you in my heart
we keep your Spirit alive
on focus 3
what a beautiful place
to be
in our ups and downs
you are honored everyday
we are reminded of your work
while on this earth as a human
and believe you rose from
the dead still with his life for US
to never forget
died on the cross to be seated
at the right hand of the Father
we praise you on this weekend
and remember we are Gods
children

my granddaughter recites the "Lords
Pray" and soon to be three
how awesome is that

i think i'm on to somthing

Father Wednesday i go to a new doctor
to rule out osteomyelitis or metastatic disease
upon looking at my myelogram has found at L4 and L5
there is severe degenerative disc decease with loss of disc height, vacuum disc phenomenon, endplate sclerosis and productive osterophayte formation also a posterior disc bulge witch results in mild central canal stenosis and causes mass effect on the left L5 auxiliary sleeve
than i look at my most recent MRI
and at L3 and L4 hemangioma of the L3 vertebral body
a long inferior endplate of L3 and superior aspect of L4
there are adjacent degenerative endplate changes
there is mild right paracentral disc bulge also
a marked narrowing of right neural foramina
at L4 and L5 there is servere narrowing with adjacent endplate changes and there is mild facet orthrosis

so,

does anyone else see where i am going
my hemangioma just might be the lurking culprit
oh my goodness
now i will not rule out the possibility of it
being cancer a very small chance
as i am gaining weight
look healthy
and what more can i say
how ironic i pull my test that shows
the above

sweet Mother Mary
Amen

this i will bring to the doctor this week
oh goodness
could i be right
it makes sense
will have to wait and see
with the new doctor

i ask please Lord
hear our prayers
in Jesus i Trust
to all

Blessed
thankful
joyful
love filled
Blessed

My granddaughter baby Eva playing with her aunt

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dear friend

so amazed am i too
yet i can be who i am
this too i understand
this may sound sad
but i'm thinking ahead
i need to wear sandals
that have straps so i do
not fall
so i found sandals
and thought to myself
these will be easy for
my kids to put them on
not wanting to be a burden
then i think jeez little Eva
and i will be so close
shoot
she walks in the door
puts her shoes in the
closet as you walk into
the apartment
ya think the adults
would remember
ya know what i mean
the everyday pain we live with
this morning for the first time
in a long i woke up nauseous
my meds are still the same
need to smoke as it helps
get rid of it
completely
what happened
my body is rotting
a little bit each day
i reached it's my pique
at fifty i am fifty three now
you write how much less of
movement allowed throwing
i still cannot get over the pain
in my fingers
how i have to push myself
ie
my daughter Christine
Eva's mommy my daughter
say to me
"mom i'm so sorry
because if my body feels
like it does now
i can't imagine how you feel"
said to her
"i always had a high tolerance
to pain"
so for that my friend
i want to say
thank you for reminding me
of
i can just BE
with pain and all
do when i can
many times
soooooo over do it
and pay for it for a
couple of days
my home is not complete yet
so i try a little at a time
and i am grateful for what's
important to me
is my family
as tiny as it is
another day of BEING

Amen my friend

love all around the world
and celebrate

BEING

God my Father hears our prayers

i BELIEVE

in Jesus name

I BELIEVE

Thank you for sharing your peeps with us!
A true BLESSING indeed!
and YOU are such a blessing to US
....always being there with the right things to say
to a hurting soul, or a prayer request, or even just because
someone needs a smile. Yes YOU dear Eva
are a true vessel from God

and you are a wonderful
wise person also
who is loved very much in return
blessing to know you