hey all ...

don't want to put a damper on everyone .. just picked up my mail ... got the SSDI letter ... another denial ... duh ... and here I thought all my doctors were helping me?

I'm not mad .. just numb ... if I knew this - I would of applied for jobs and collected unemployment and had some money to live on ...

worth it to get a lawyer?? should I call the 800 number that they show on TV?

Sandy.........Jim reminds me of Ashton Kutcher(sp?) in those pics.
Cuties you were.:

praying for your son Frank.:(

sorry about ssdi Vonn.:(

Good evening to all ................:hug:

tootired to update much here. my littlest schmoopie is very sick.........I hope
its not a repeat of last year and the KD.........I have found out you can
get it again:mad::( Ill be watching him like a hawk.:( I d love you to include
my boy in your prayers.

thank you everyone about our son, this son also informed us a while ago he is leaving tonight, Me I give up trying to talk sense into him and deb is numb,

Sandy thank you very much, I got home and deb was excited cause you had called, I thank you Kindly:hug:

Vonn might not be a bad idea only problem is it isn't any quicker I have been dealing with it close to two years now. I'm praying, things fall into place for you:hug:

again thank you everyone....

Vonn, I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. :hug:

Sox, you got it. I am sorry you have to worry. :hug:

Frank, I enjoyed talking to Deb even though the tone wasn't as upbeat as we'd like. I told her we have an emotional bond and that made her laugh. As a mother, I am so worried for your son. It makes me sick to think of the worse. I pray this is real and they make it. :hug:

no need to worry ... Sandy ... I'll be okay ... probably will stay offline for awhile to figure my whole life out ... seeing that I lost my job, my home, and my debt is eating at me!! LOL

all will work out ... thanks for hanging in there with me thru this last year from he!! ...

when a doctor dx's a person - it should be automatic (oops, someone will abuse THAT priveledge!)

I'm okay ... talk soon! :hug:

Vonn, what happens to your apartment if you don't have income coming in? What have you been doing since you applied for SSDI?

oh, Vonn, that blows !!

my heart aches for you... definitely appeal the decision, and see if you can find a specialist lawyer to help with the appeal, perhaps?

Frank, tell Deb I'm singing Pink Floyd to her, that song about being numb.

my prayers are with you guys, and your son, that this relationship works.

remember, it all worked out for me and my husband, and hey, it worked for you two too, right?

keep thinking positive, but be there with open arms, so he has a fallback position.

*************

today was gnarly in the jungle... a miserable day for me.

leg spazzes up the wazoo, and left leg jerking all over town.

sinus headache, plus achy back, plus generalized bad mood.

today is a big national holiday here, and last night there was live bands and a parade and a big ol' party going on in the village until 3 am...

Battle of St. George's Caye

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_...rge's_Caye

so, I didn't get much sleep last night, between the leg aches and twitches, the headache, and backache, and wave after wave of hot flashes...

:eek: and :confused:

and the music kept my geese and ducks restless and noisy too...

then, all day today, I kept having the worst leg and foot cramps, the kind that make me whimper and do childbirth breathing, when I discover I'm gritting my teeth, and feeling snarlish and grumpish.

I prayed for calm serenity and inner peace, and healing, and then I hunted for the Baclofen...

oh CACA !! I'm OUT !!

:eek: and :mad:

so, I called my GP for help.

whoops! it's a holiday, and no docs or farmacias open...

:eek: and :(

and my middle-of-ugly-divorce friend came back last night, very tipsy...

sigh and sigh and sigh...

luckily, she spent the day in the guesthouse, sleeping it off, so I didn't have to be helpful and supportive during my bad day...

I made it through my evening feeding chores just barely, I was staggering to get back to the house...

I decided to be pro-active, and take a nice warm shower with candles and incense and soft classical music.

I spent a whole hour in ther bathroom, trying to get centered and attitudinally-adjusted.

since the cistern is full (13 thousand gallons!) from all the rains, I didn't feel guilty, and just enjoyed myself, scrubbing, doing a pedicure, and a manicure, and a facial.

then, I splayed myself out under my mosquito net canopy, with the fan on full blast, with an icy tropical fruit wine cooler, and rested for a bit.

and now, VOILA!! I feel almost human again, and mi esposo is calling me for dinner, and I might actually be able to SMILE...

:hug: :D :hug:

Sandy - this is low-income housing ... so, I'm okay ... used my 'tax biz' income (which isn't much) to establish the rent amount ... but they approved me until I get the SSDI ... and then I can still stay here - it only will increase my rent amount.

been selling quilting stuff ... and painting some for cash to survive ... finally got the food stamp approval (full amount) until there's an income to drop that amount lower ...

love your new location, sweetie!!

:D

now wondering how long it's SAID that?

deduct 50 points from my observant level if it's old.

add 50 if it's really actually new.

:hug:

Well the leap of faith has been made by deb and I, in our sons choice, he left about an hour ago, Dear god please watch over him and guide him, please

Everyone I hope you had a pleasant day and better morn

thank you everyone for your support I only wish I had opened up a bit sooner, you all are such wonderful friends, thank you:grouphug: