After changing doctors and trying new meds, I thought i was doing better and wondered if I still deserved to be on SSDI. Well I have learned that I am not getting better, the feeling was only temporary and now I am sure that I am where I should be. I was so pumped when my new pdoc gave me new hope that I was on the road to recovery but now I know just how ill I really am and I am humbled once again.

Some recent events have brought that emotional struggle over adjusting to life as 'a disabled person' home for me too Shell....I hope that you are doing okay.

Oh my gosh Shellback...I go through the same thing often. I think I am going in the right direction for a day or two and then I crash and end up in the hospital again. I wish you the very best...try to keep you chin up.

Unfortunately thats the way it goes with mental disorders. You think you have hit upon the regiht combo of meds. They may even work for a month or 2 then all of the sudden the body adjusts and we are back to where we were before. I am worried as I have been told I have literally tried all of the meds out there. I have been on newer meds the past year with no real help. Only gaining alot of weight and very lethargic. I have only been on the computer 3 tims the past 6 weeks. I wish you luck but know you aren't in the boat alone.

Exactly Hoosier, but......I think it's the way it goes with ALL disorders, not just mental health issues. We have a good day....or a string of them....and get a taste of what life was like 'before'

That is frustrating....which adds to pain for some of us and can be even worse for those battling mental health issues.

We all have to try to enjoy the upswings, but NOT try to be superman/woman because that just makes the downswing that much more difficult !

Have you been peeking here Shell ? I hope that you are doing okay !

Hey finz, I have been lurking here and there and I am doing my best to hang in there. Went to see my doc last week and I was a total mess. I think my new pdoc finally see's just how poorly I am doing which is a good thing IMO since I need his support. Thanks for checking in on me finz.