[Zevan]

I was on SSI for many years & was booted off due to coming into some money so I did not qualify anymore. Since that time I have been fighting to get my SSDI. I was told I would have to show I was currently seeing a counselor to help my case. The first woman I saw for a year, & she told me she knew I was disabled & would even go to court for me to testify. I finally got frustrated with her because I could tell she didn't remember most of the things we had already discussed. Taking notes would have been something I would do, but then that's just me. I finally requested another counselor but only saw her several times before she got another job. I listed the original counselor to show I had seen someone & expected her to at least be professional; however, to be vindictive she wrote in the notes I received from my attorney, who dropped my case, that I could WORK. This counselor suggested I hide income like she does. The place she works at deliberately works her only so many hours and her Mother hides her money. This woman is 40 yrs. old & I'm 60. I don't have a Master's degree like her I am a high school drop out.

The 2nd place I went to was the original place that put me on SSI. I figured they for sure would know what to do & review my record I already had with them. I just received my record from them today. The counselor who I really liked just made very trivial notes, completely different than all the records that got me SSI. Just stupid stuff like I was dressed nice & was talkative. She suggested I sell my house and I could get back on SSI. That is an INSANE idea. So then what am supposed to do, go rent somewhere and pay more money to do that? Plus I have a rental that helps bring in income. She wrote in the notes I was OBSESSED about getting my SSDI and medicare. Oh how dare I be concerned about getting kicked off of SSI and want to get my work related record after all the mental problems I have and the cancer I have battled. Once you have cancer it doesn't necessarily just GO AWAY...it is a life long battle and is very scary. Luckily when I got it I was on SSI so I had medi-caid. I am totally convinced that people who have health care don't care about others who don't. It's easy for them to act like it's no big deal. I feel bad but I'm hoping both of them lose their health care so they find out just exactly how it really is.

All of this has been a total waste of time..how can it go from being so severe I was put on SSI before without an attorney within two months? Now I have had two no good attorneys drop me & I went to the hearing & the lawyer just set there like a bump on the log. He was so stupid he thought I wanted SSI again. Sorry for venting...I'm making this way too long again & hope it post this time.