[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

i only speak for myself
someone who knows her body
my neurosurgeon maimed me
the second surgery
took me further down
i believe almost certain
my cyst thyroglossal has
been an issue and i need
to see an ENT again
what makes me scared and angry
all the pain i suffer
neck back shoulders
r. jaw r.ear headaches
arms fingers hand
legs feet
joints and so on
half of these ailments i describe
(AFDC 5/6-6/7 cadaver fusion plate with cage)
i hadn't have before any surgery
and since having them all has gone
down hill
he is not deserving of his practice
leaving me like this and not
owning up to his additional additives
my cyst could have been removed
became active during his care
i believe he wanted the room to himself
now i'm left wondering could something be
brewing with the cyst that caused my breast
to activate along with all tests x-rays and so on
my gut has never failed me in my lifetime
so it puts me on a hell of a road ahead
and i have no choice but move fast
i tested positive for breast cancer (biopsy and mri w/contrast)
if you type in
can a thyroglossal duct cyst cause
certain cancers
you'll see what i do
it is scary not looking to blame
but when you ask your neurosurgeon
"doc why is my one pupil different
than the other"
rather owning up and say
surgery was the possible cause
it is called Horners syndrome
his response was
"did you see an eye dr."
i have been wearing glasses
since 4th grade
my eye became different in size
pupil i mean not sight
i am so angry
i wake up every time i get
a chance to sleep and upon waking
i take my meds am reminded
i have cancer
as if it were told too me the first time
all i have is my God and my tiny family
i want toooooo LIVE!
i have caught him fabricating
in writing mishaps that are not true
my mind won't let go of this highly
possibility i am right
after all it is MY BODY
I KNOW HOW IT WORKS
i feel something brewing
and it doesn't feel good