dear friends

pain is always slowly worsening

as the days go by

the meds i'm on are way powerful

they just mask my pain

my neck has developed an bunch of cracking

as i move it

i wear my soft collar all the time

can't wait to see a new doctor

that will be soon i hope

double mastectomy comes first

cancer as films reveal are in my breast

Thank you God for that

will keep writing

it's a wonderful life!

lots of love all over the world

hi Eva,

I think and pray for you every single day. You are a very strong lady.
I do believe that God never puts us through anything that we cannot endure, conquer, or walk through. There is a reason for our suffering and health problems, even if it is to help others and give strength to those even worse off then us.

I know you have so much weighing on your body, mind and soul, but do keep up the good fight and press on, I feel that good health and well-being is on the horizon for you.

I hope you have found some comfort and happiness this Christmas season, and may the New Year find you some health and much needed pain relief.

Hugs from a friend afar....
Cathie

dear cat

thinking of you as well
guess what
oliver was here for
Christmas
i so sad to hear of a
Christmas morning fire
on T.V. news
whole family
grandparents to grandchildren
anyhow
hope your day with the family
went smooth
my daughter cooked
takes after her mom
taught her good
she did really well
everyone was here except
Christine and my grandchild Eva
they are doing great
Christine needs meetings right away
i know that all so well
very happy that you wrote
so scared when it hits me
i trust in God
when i begin to see the bigger
picture it becomes okay

have a blessed day

friend

dear friends

my numbness scratchy feeling as it hurts
if that makes any sense
the pain just gets worse

i do not get it statistic
in my opinion surgery rarely
successful
and don't mess with the bones
unless absolutely a must
lets not forget never be alone
and always know what your doctor is
saying

Yeh Eva, I heard about that family too. When I hear news like that I can only pray. So many things come to us Via the news these days, and not much of it is good. So we pray, thats what we do. hope your day is going OK Eva. Of course I am thinking of you. ginnie

bless your sweet heart
how are you my dear
anyone loving you
sending my love
dear friend

By your example, you are giving all of us strength and learning coping skills as well.

Thank you God for Eva

Thank you for asking. I do have caring people in my life. Lots of support. Unfortunately it is not from my family. I pray for that part of my family that abandoned me, and I forgive them. My daughter was in special ed. her husband took a dislike of me, and prevented me from every seeing her or my grandson. He is a contol person, who allowed no communication. I was bitter for a long time. I had to give it to God to solve, because I could not. My health has been doing OK. Pain is kept in check, and I have some very good physicians in my corner. My doctors do know about my family sitution and are very compassionate. I now have to take this part of my family to court over a messy trust. It will be a difficult year, but again God has blessed me with a pro-Bono lawyer. I wait to hear from this attorney now. I find it hard to be patient. Life really can be hard Eva, so I come here to give and recieve those good prayers and thoughts. You know I will be with you too on your surgery date. When I hear of others troubles, it puts my own trouble into perspective. I have much to be grateful for. So many of us face things that are difficult. I am glad we have each other on this site to help us along. Have a good day Eva, I have that prayer list written down! ginnie

dear ginnie

unfortunately we can't pick our family
but you can or won't allow it in your life
and move on
now please don't misunderstand
i miss the idea of a mother
she still lives
my feeling to date
is so deep
i will regret
for i have no respect
she is not due the honor
someone who will not own up to the
lies and truths that still
continue to surface
some may say i am relentless
if i fell strongly of its ramifications
such as mine
something i know is not allowed
i am suppose to honor my father and mother
i honored so much my little body suffered
hard unusual tasks were expected
from my sister and myself
bottom line i wouldn't be me
if i weren't true to myself
i miss a mother
but would rather do without
it hurts toooooo much
shame on me!
it is what it is
i understand