But, to be able to clearly see where we have been, be it a dark hole or a "prison" takes enormous courage....your lion roared!

We all know better than that young lady! You can't hide your light.

Awwww, that's sweet Alffe!

I just meant that I haven't learned to step around the hole... even when I see it coming... and I don't always see it coming (that's what the hat and cloak were about). LOL!

~ waves ~ in the light... for now

When you're in that hole ~waves, remember that it does have sides and your friends are right there, wanting to hold you up.

sometimes the hole is a secure place..... i did not say a good place, or maybe i should say comfortable ......

You got that right. Climbing out of the hole puts you in places you haven't seen for years You are expected to know and do so much and move so fast.
That miserable hole is safer.
Maybe that hole is home?

Yes. I know what you both mean. Not only, coming out puts you out where you can be seen... you are exposed... you are vulnerable. Depression easily become a habit.... or multiple habits. And we all know how "habits" are safe and comfortable.

~ waves ~ who seems to have a clothing thing going, between cloaks, hats, and now habits... well at least i didn't say burka which is what i was thinking about.

so many things come to mind..."old habits die hard" is only one of them and now that you've mentioned it, a burka sounds super comfy.

Goofy you remain in my prayers and I promise you, it will get better.

Oh Goofysis... you have been on my mind! I always know, instinctively, that you are here with us... its just something I feel because I have gotten to know you.

I can't promise you when... but I CAN promise you there will come a day when you can look back at this time and realize how courageous you are!! You are surrounded by love, and like Alffe said, we're holding you here!

I completely understand what you mean when you say the hole is a comfortable place. I tried to have my doctor understand this the other day... and I'm not sure she got it. She's young... and still a young soul.

When things are going good for me, which they really have been this last year, thank you God(dess!)... I keep waiting for my stomach to roll in anxiety... I almost will it to happen... and then my mind turns in circles wondering which "dilemna" I should focus on... to see if "IT" will trigger the anxiety that I have always been so familiar with.

This past year, despite life changing events, I've managed to stay in the moment. Its FEAR that keeps rearing it's ugly UGLY head! I'm sure that's how it is with you dear ((((Goofysis)))))... so many "rock your world" changes for you this year... devastating losses ... and so many unknowns.

You are one brave woman and I am proud to call you friend

Addy

time for another bump! :grouping: