Hello my very dear all,

I wanted to come here before, but I was feeling crappy and decided not to because I felt I was going to fill our sweet room with my pest....

I dont know if today is a good day for me to write as I hate sundays and my mood during them is not like the best...

However, I read your posts and couldnt leave wuthout replying...

HOCKEY: You are so right.... I definetely think I need, urgently, to start working in loving me first.... i was thinking the other day, and I hate me... If I could change anything about my life, I would change EVERYTHING ! How pathetic is that !
Thank for your sweet words Hockey I will start looking for the nice ingredients that surround me.......

MEG: Oh dear Meg !!! I hate to read you feel like me because it is a horrible feeling huh ? But, somehow we have to keep fighting... and dreaming... with cakes No, seriously, thanks for your post, and, I'll pray and think about you too...

ABBIE: Your post was so sweet !!! Ill pray so ALL your dreams can come true too !!! I love you dear Abbie.

REYN: Thank you so much for praying for me.... I always say I can trully feel the power of people praying for me... so, I really appreciate you take the time to say a prayer for me

TINGLY: Oh ! that sweet post and those lovely words !! Thank you tingly... you made me cry Oh lord... I cant help it... I have realised I cry a lot !!

THELONELY: Hey cutie !!! Thanks for the hugs and prayers !!! You are always in my mind and prayers. Thanks for caring about me !

SANDY: I really appreciate your prayers and words... they mean A LOT to me !!

ALFFE: Thanks for always, ALWAYS being here for me.... and for remembering me...

Im still not feeling good.... I have a busy week, full of exams... things to do... STRESS !!!
Plus, this month, it will be 2 years since I had my bad eye surgery So, as you can imagine, I start to feel BAD again....

Thanks for thinking about me.

Thank you for posting Blue, we've missed you for the past few days, I was starting to get worried. I'm sorry you still feel bad, and school always, always, ALWAYS makes things worse doesn't it? But please don't give up on it. One day you're going to be a world famous doctor, and you'll cure numerous diseases, and save many lives.

You are going to make the world a better place to live, I believe in you.

And by the way, you could never be a pest here.

Dear TheLonely.... (((((Hugs)))))

Ive missed you too !!!

Thanks for thinking about me... you are very kind....

Hope you are doing fine !!!

argh...... I cant belive this... and I hate to say it, but, Majo's been hit my depression again...

Oh boy... Im feeling NASTY now... I cry for everything... I feel fear for everything....

I hate everything that surrounds me... I dont enjoy the things I used to enjoy yesterday,... how crazy is that ? yesterday ! I was fighting yesterday for something I hate today... That's what I call a mood swing....

I was feeling like taking a nap when suddenly, anger invaded me... and with anger comes the sadness... What is this ?? I feel C-R-A-Z-Y....

I hate the life that surrounds me.... I feel confused... I feel... weird... tired... excited... oh boy... and Im not taking anything ! no medicines !!

People around me annoys me... I know i shouldnt care... but I cant...

Argh... I just want to lay over my bed, in a pretty dark room... and forget everything...

I hope that you feel better. Those things that you have described,I feel sometimes. Hang in there. Please read some of the Psalms. I hope that you feel better. BF

Oh dear Blue, I'm sorry you feel bad.

You are not crazy, depression is just a horrible confusing thing. It is a greedy, selfish monster that eats your happiness... maybe you should get some medications to lull the monster back to sleep? Being on meds is not a bad thing, they are a necessary tool to improve your life.

The things you liked yesterday haven't changed; when the monster goes away you'll be able to see that, and you will like them again. It's just a matter of time...

Try to be patient, okay? You are worth the wait and effort. Seek help wherever you can, whether in therapy or with meds, or both, and we will always be here as a never ending supply of love and support. I want you to be happy just as much as you do.

Smart thinking Lonely1..."the things you liked yeterday, haven't changed"...I like that a lot!

(((Blue)))

Hi Blue...

The fact that you are crying shows you do care... tears flow for a reason.

Fears lets you know that you are among the living!!

When you no longer cry over things and you have no fear... that would scare the beejeebers out of me.

Keep talking...

Abbie

Im still nor feeling precisly ok...

I want to say lots of things, but my mind wont let me... how weird is that ?? I wanted to come here before, but I felt too tired...

Im feeling confused, tired, sleepy, weird...

Im back to my vitamins and minerals... dont know... feeling weird !