Hey sweet people...

Today Im having a bad day...

It is one of those days when, I feel so lonely... when I feel, like, nobody needs or miss my soul...

I can sit down and watch the world running without me... without noticing Im here or there...

Another day without motivation... Dont know what will do tomorrow to wake up and go to the lab... Simply, wish I hadnt to...

I keep thinking about my granparents and, the beautiful family they formed... and, I wonder why Im too lonely... why I cant follow their example...

Is one of those days when I keep asking "what for ?"... "why should I ?"... Is like... anything has a reason... a positive reason I mean...

I feel like, there is no happy ending in anything I do... and, I wonder if I have just been wasting my life... dreaming stupidities that will never happend... that wont never help me... idealizing and then, falling down...