No I'm really worried. Your not a downer, your depressed. There has to be somebody out there who would love to take care of you and make you happy. You need to start living again. You will be surprised, all of a sudden something happens and life is a little better, then something else happens and you are actually smiling. I know you don't see it yet, but one day hopefully soon you will. I know it's only over the internet but there are plenty of people who care. Just give us a chance. Are you crying?

legalmania is right lonely1, you are depressed...(suprise suprise) This forum is very quiet lately. Our Peter used to say that's a good thing..you really don't want an active suicide forum.

But what to do about you dear friend. I know that Blue suggested you join facebook as a way of socializing...that isn't a bad idea. There are a lot of members from this forum playing games over there and telling me that you wouldn't think playing games could make you feel better but it does.

I think you said you are house sitting this weekend for your parents and wouldn't have puter access but please consider it as a way of making instant friends!

Hi

Today's a little better because I called her, and talked to her for a little while. She says she wasn't the one in charge of inviting people. Kind of a crappy excuse if you ask me, but just getting to talk to her made me feel a little better.

I used to have a facebook account, but it made me sad to see everyone else talking with friends and posting pictures while my wall sat lonely and untouched. Also there are no pictures of me because I'm never around when others are taking pictures.



I'm still sad, I still don't see any hope, but hey, that's how I've been non-stop for years now.

Thank you Legalmania and Alffe for trying to help me.

Aha !

Majo strikes back... WAIT A MINUTE....

2 things here...

1.- Hun, dont get mad with me or anything BUT, why do you keep calling her "best friend", "only friend", "friend" or whatever !? You have said it before several times, she doesnt care about you... and, a friend would care about you... would talk to you, would party with you and of course, would invite you to her party... SO !, 2 things on this matter... a) Please let her go... start the healing process by accepting she is not the nice, caring person you think or want to think she is... This will hurt like hell, but only for days, months.... a year... but then, you can start living again as legalmania said without being tied to a person, that, to be honest, do not deserve your friendship it seems, because YOU, you are a very worthy person... YOU are incredible... You are nice, care about others, you are funny, you are always here for person in need like me, you are such a wonderful young man who has a life in front of you... And I bet you are handsome too. Look at me... I was for almost a year tied to a guy that now is married, never talk to me, and seems that never cared about me, so what ! it hurt like hell, but now, even when sometimes I still cry, just remember the good times without seeing him like the perfect man he wasnt... at least he wasnt perfect for me because otherwise we would be together now.
-LOL- I forgot what was going to be part b)...

2.- Let me tell you, I have never been popular at school... never used to be invited to parties... etc... nothing... never... no pics about me... etc... BUT, since I started to talk to people, to post pics about me, taken by me because nobody took me photos either, I started to meet wonderful people (in facebook and in real life), so, my point is you have to throw the first stone... You will meet jerks to, but you can later ignore them...
Dont open a facebook profile if you dont want to, but if you open it and start to talk to people, they will start talking back to you because you are lovely...
I have realised that the empty profiles are those that belong to people that never comment the posts of others... so, those others wont comment on your posts... is like everything in life, it is reciprocal...
You can be sure at least me will talk to you there, here and wherever...

Ok, I wish you a peaceful sunday.... Hey ! listen to "our" song tonight ok ??

xoxoxo

Lonely you should give Face book a try I have fun on there and I bet we all could get you having some fun too.
Sending you a big wish for your Sunday to be bright warm and less lonely.

Blue, somehow your posts always make me smile. I don't know how you do it, must just be part of your charm.

BUT I promise that my friend is a good person, she's the one who always saved me from the depression beast before I found this website. She's the only person who has made any effort to keep me in their life, and at one point she even made me feel like I was important, because she needed me. I think she does still care about me, she just doesn't have time for me with all of her work/school/homework. I can't just cut her out of my life like so many people have done to me.

And about the whole facebook thing, most of my "friends" there were people that went to my high school, but I've spoken to on maybe one or two occations. they're not really friends, they just happen to remember that we used to go to the same school. I did try to talk to the few people who I actually know, but for the most part my comments were ignored. I think that I must have been annoying them by trying to comment on their lives.

I joined facebook because I was sad and lonely, and I quit when I realized that it only made the pain worse.

But, I appreciate the effort everyone has put in to talk to me so thank you all again for being here.

Lonely1 let me tell you a story. When I was in my early teens, I was very shy. It was my birthday and my girlfriend asked me if I wanted to come over her house for a slumber/ pool party. I said o.k. since it was just going to be me and a few girlfriends. Well when I walked in I heard surprise. It was my whole class. Everybody showed up. I was so scared because I had to take off my clothes, in front of boys, and I was wearing a bikini. I thought it was going to be just girls. When I finally got the courage to take off my clothes, the most popular girl in the school, Linda Cox, said "oh my goodness you have the nicest body." Then all the other girls started saying the same thing. My confidence shot straight up. Then I found out one of the best looking guys in my class liked me. I couldn't believe it. So overnight this shy little mouse became a princess. So like I said things can change in one second. You may be walking down the street and somebody may fall madly in love with you. Or on the internet the same thing could happen, but you have to try. If you don't try nobody will know your out there. Please stop putting yourself down, If you talk like that people will think you don't want them around. Just be yourself. Be confident. Promise me no more negativity. Mr. negativity has left town. Now Mr. Positivity is here to stay. Get some pictures of yourself and post them, make that move.

Oh honey ! Im actually so glad to hear that !!! Then, please dont be sad, you said it, she is busy and sometimes our mind blows up and forget very important things
So, nobody excludedyou from that party... (And to be honest, I dont know what type of party was that without you... )