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BlueMajo 10-18-2010 09:15 PM

So, I would like to let you know you dear all, that Im going to Dallas this wednesday... Just for a couple of days... Im coming back home on friday... I will try to log in while there, but we will see if my phone decides to cooperate or the hotel has internet...

This trip is something special.... I was going to Minneapolis last september to see my second most fav band, and the gig got cancelled 15 days before... then, I arranged everything to go to Indianapolis in October AND, that one got cancelled too 2 days before :( What I needed in my life was more frustrations... I have been feeling very sad, and, today my father gave me the surprise... to be honest, it's been a while since he gave me a gift, not even in Christmas or my birthday... so, it was so cute. I will go and watch some other music band, but still...

However, I have never been to Dallas before and to be honest, Im terrified :eek: But I still appreciate the gift ! :o

So, say a prayer for me please, it will be very appreciated !! and, I always feel you are with me :) :hug:

Love ya so much.

See ya soon !!

Majo. :grouphug:

MelodyL 10-18-2010 09:23 PM

Have a wonderful time.

ROCK ON!!!

God, I remember the days of Santanna(who I saw in concert), Creedence Clearwater, Janis Joplin, WOODSTOCK!!!

Enjoy!!

Mel

BlueMajo 10-18-2010 09:46 PM

Thank you darling !!!! :hug:

I'll try my best !!!

smae 10-18-2010 11:39 PM

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Originally Posted by BlueMajo (Post 706222)
Thank you darling !!!! :hug:

I'll try my best !!!

Who is it that you are going to see? Maybe you mentioned it.. I've reread it several times trying to figure it out, but I can't think straight.. am exhausted. Just curious what band/artist it is. Enjoy!!

bipola+arvd35 10-19-2010 12:57 AM

It doesnt matter
 
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Originally Posted by BlueMajo (Post 700025)
I know I havent post much here lately...

but... right now I urged to....

Im so angry... Im crying of anger... I hate everything, everybody... myself... I just feel the necessecity of cut myself or something...

I dont know what to do.... no reason.... or actually, too many reasons....

My life is wrong.... every time I try something, it fails... :mad:

I hate everybody, they are mean to me, always bothering, interfering my life... I hate my existance,

Thanks for reading.

Hey Bluemajo...

I know my title sucks in response to your message, and the only tip that I can give you is....YOU. If drugs work to help you...great...but suffering with Bipolar for the last 16 years I really do feel your pain, I understand completely..and those 'normal ppl' around us that try to help never can get what its like....I really hope that you can start scraping with your nails out of the hole that you have fallen into....I have tried several times to shuffle off this mortal coil. Not that it matters but I am suffering deeply at the moment and all I can is rely on myself...I know have a pacemaker otherwise I die...IRONIC ISNT IT? I wish to god that I never signed that consent form...but obviously I am here for some stupid reason....I wish I could take your pain away...but you know deep down that you and only you can be the strength between staying and going....all the best:hug:

redtail 10-19-2010 04:25 AM

Oooh who are you going to see???? Have a wonderful time!!!!

BlueMajo 10-19-2010 08:46 PM

Im going to see 2 bands actually.... One Republic (LOVE THEM ! :D ) and Maroon 5... !!!!! :D :)

Im excited but veeeeeeeeeery nervous !!! Have never been to Dallas, and, of course Im scared my health problems can ruin everything.... :(

Hopefully I will survive.... Will try to report back when I get to my hotel ! :eek:

Love ya so much !!!!!!!!!!

:hug: :grouphug:

Addy 10-19-2010 09:14 PM

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Originally Posted by bipola+arvd35 (Post 706264)
Hey Bluemajo...

I know my title sucks in response to your message, and the only tip that I can give you is....YOU. If drugs work to help you...great...but suffering with Bipolar for the last 16 years I really do feel your pain, I understand completely..and those 'normal ppl' around us that try to help never can get what its like....I really hope that you can start scraping with your nails out of the hole that you have fallen into....I have tried several times to shuffle off this mortal coil. Not that it matters but I am suffering deeply at the moment and all I can is rely on myself...I know have a pacemaker otherwise I die...IRONIC ISNT IT? I wish to god that I never signed that consent form...but obviously I am here for some stupid reason....I wish I could take your pain away...but you know deep down that you and only you can be the strength between staying and going....all the best:hug:

Well said! There is a new book coming out by Margaret Trudeau and it is on my list... "Changing My Mind".... I've always admired this woman (she used to be what American's call our "first lady" - she was married to our prime minister and the mother of 3 sons (one who died in a tragic avalanche)... and bipolar...
I always admire public figures for telling their story.
Makes me realize I'm not alone!

(((hugs))) to bipola... :hug:

thelonely1 10-19-2010 10:17 PM

I hope you have a good time at your concert Blue! :hug:

Doody 10-20-2010 10:14 AM

((Bipola)) I wish we could take your pain away also. :grouphug:


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