Makes me think of another thread with discussion of dysfunctional families.

Thanks for posting that Ms. Alffe. So much of that is true. Lord knows I held onto a few things about my parents that, well, really and truly affected me. And for the most part, only one or two of those things have really changed. That holding on to those feelings for years...well, what a waste of emotional energy. Total waste of emotional energy.

I can't use up any more time playing a 'blame' game.

I feel that in understanding this, I also let myself "off the hook"... as I did the best I could with who I was at that time...

another bump and hugs for the room!

Amen
that's all one can do
i chose to divorce at the age of twenty four
with three children
3, 1 and 3 months old
without any substitute fathers
and all her family in Europe
a no good narcissistic mother
had her boyfriend now her ex-husband
living together and was a absent grandparent

i had hoped to do differently
differently i did
and almost lost myself in the process
the circle of life
me

(((Eva))) I hear you.

my dear i know you do

i begin to think when i was in school as a little girl
the two teachers who took me under their wing
Mrs. Garity churning cream in class into butter
i was in such awe may it be then i fell in love with cooking
she knew something wasn't right never asked me anything
this was the late 60's early 70's
and my 7th grade English teacher Mrs.Walsh
and then i was shy with boys
but assertive with all else
awkward
no one to talk too
in the end it was figured out
it's tough doing it yourself
then high school came
i was different
born in South Africa
but SPOKE HUNGARIAN
NOT EASY
not easy
of course i have my paperwork
documents of my USA status
freedom
that too i would gladly
debate

Why am i rambling so
This Country had a responsibility
to find the disgusting perp
including family should be watched
not to jump right i and call the State
it to may make situations more than what
it is

why isn't mental health taken seriously
me

I think I love both Mrs Garity and Mrs. Walsh

as my love in return to you my friend
thank you
me

there are no blame games
it is a human life
a child before the age of five
and it not be in that child's power to even understand
what's going on until it is way to late
and how one must take responsibility of our
own life
most times it's almost to late
so much self damage has taken over
life isn't fair