Thank you, everyone....last night was so awful and it just came out of the blue. It hasn't happened like that in quite awhile and it really scared me. I feel that I have no strength lately for the big "fight" in life. I've never had to be such a pain in the behind here before so I really wasn't sure how to get through to someone...
I did listen to the meditations, though, and that began to help. Then I took tons of meds and, after I'd calmed down, I was able to read. Today I seem to be okay. I'm able to manage things during the daytime, but nights are harder. I don't know why; maybe because my friends are sleeping and I'm awake...seems to be a whole different world at night.
I really appreciate the concern and I'm glad that I could count on you for help. That means everything! I haven't been around in a long time but I'll try to be much better. I don't have a quite "normal" life to share with any of you....not all that interesting, anyway. But I promise to try and be a better listener and be around more! Again, thanks so much.