[thelonely1]

I wonder how long it's been since I said anything here... time doesn't have any meaning for me.

I wonder that I don't have anything to talk about; you've heard it all before.

I wonder sometimes if I'll forget how to speak because of how little oppertunity I have to. And on those rare ocasions where I might speak the words come hard, awkward, and slurred.

I wonder if a normal person would go to a doctor if that happened to them.

I wonder how long I'll have the strength to get out of bed knowing that my life is a dead end.

I wonder if God really does have a purpose for me; but even if He does, I still don't care to live long enough to find out what it is. I can't help but think it will be something depressing like 'to make everyone else's life look better by comparrison.'

[barbo]

Originally Posted by thelonely1

I wonder how long it's been since I said anything here... time doesn't have any meaning for me.

I wonder that I don't have anything to talk about; you've heard it all before.

I wonder sometimes if I'll forget how to speak because of how little oppertunity I have to. And on those rare ocasions where I might speak the words come hard, awkward, and slurred.

I wonder if a normal person would go to a doctor if that happened to them.

I wonder how long I'll have the strength to get out of bed knowing that my life is a dead end.

I wonder if God really does have a purpose for me; but even if He does, I still don't care to live long enough to find out what it is. I can't help but think it will be something depressing like 'to make everyone else's life look better by comparrison.'

We've missed you!

[Addy]

I've been wondering about you lots lonely1 and would like to give you a ... I'm sorry life is just so difficult for you...

I've been wondering lots about whether or not I'll make it over this next mountain...

I've been wondering if I'm simply riding a wave of mania... and am watching/monitoring myself closely - writing quite a bit about "it"... and I talked to one of my best friends to tell her I was afraid to get too excited about things because I'm afraid she would feel I was again on that roller coaster of highness... and said, oh, no... she can tell I'm doing so much better..

so I cautiously wonder if my new life's direction is, indeed, a healthier choice...

and I wonder at how much this goes against my learned behaviour....

and I wonder if our Marshallow friend will be back to turn this thread off... or just who will step up to the plate to soon start the next one...
xoxo Addy

[tamiloo]

I want to add a few wonders before this turns into #248...

I wonder why I have stayed away knowing about all the love and support I would receive from all the fellow SOS family!!

I wonder if on another thread I can talk about what's going with me...it does hurt some what to sit so it may take time...

I always wonder about hugs!!!!!