Hang on Pooh. You are on a ranch? That sounds nice. I miss my little farm. I know they can be a lot of work though. Please keep on keepin on for me. Because I want to hear about your ranch.

Well yes I fell in love with this bipolar cowboy years and years ago. Our current cowherd is 1000 stong with babies at side. Hunny also raises bulls (been known to shoot a little too) There ares horses, dogs a very few cats and all the stuff that goes with the territory. I am a nutty nurse who puts down the road to work at a small rural hospital. There I work in surgery, the floor and ER. We care for our niece who lost her momma before she was 3 months old and have a son who will be celebrating his 1st year anniversery this weekend with a lovely young lady who I love as my own daughter. Long years ago we lost 2 daughters to genetic problems. I have so much to live and fight for, but so much of the time I fall into the pits in the road or the black dogs take ahold of me. I have a longstanding diagnoses of treatment resistant depression with suicidal tendancies, I also suffer from RSD and arthritis.
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You are strong. You know it down deep. You also send mixed messages... so much love in the messages despite the pain. (((Pooh))) That's a good, good thing.

I wish I could take your physical pain away but I can't I'm so sorry. We all wish we could do that.

Hold on.

Hi Pooh

Wow a ranch. I am pee green with envy.

When I worked in hospitals I sometimes worked in the ER, I loved the ER. No rural hospitals for me, major city level 1 trauma centers. I used to be a social worker and before that while I was in grad school I was a cardiology tech (back when they didn't make the aids and nurses do them on top of everything else they have to do)

Nurses are amazing, I have no idea how they do it and I have seen it up close!

Did you ever get ahold of your shrink?

What are you taking for your RSD? I have degenerative dusk disease, fibromyalgia and know chronic pain.

Hoping you a Grand Day
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My shrink is a constant source of fustration. I have had so many over the years.... I am yet to find a truely "good" one. My priamary care doc is currently also frustrated with her as she seems to be ignoring his request for input about my current status. As of next Tuesday I will have had this current headache for 3 weeks straight... of course most of my current meds cause headache I have had blood drawn multiple tests run, my brain scanned (CT only because of my SCS) Had my veins blown, (look like Ive been beaten) nothing but normal. Doc would like to cut down on my doses, however feels in light of the fact the shrink started them he should consult with her. I am still over a month out to seeing my new doc. Not sure I can continue this course. I am debating what I think I should do. What does and does not make sense to my body and mind.

(((((pooh))))) ... find cool shade and an ice drink... hang in there my friend

Just thinking about you

(((POOH)))))

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