I wonder that it is time for a new wonder thread

I wonder that i have not been myself in months but fighting off any heavy sadness ,thanks to my friends .

I wonder that there has been to many times I find myself sitting and wonder about all the thoughts that went threw my best pals mind the moments before she completed ending her life. Wonder that I DO NOT think she was giving in or giving up. I think and believe she is/was brave more then anyone can or will ever know. wonder that gosh darn I miss the heck out of her sooo badly

I wonder that I have not been posting in my usual t.n. forum here and it is cus I feel my work is done there.

I wonder how much Addy has inspired me and I have my new year resolution ... to learn how to crochet . Wonder if there is a book crocheting for dummies ??? wonder if Addy knows she filled a sad empty spot somewhere inside me today and I want to thank her. addy .

wonder that i too have a small pile of posties I HAVE NOT mailed out yet... wonder if i should just put them in holiday card and do it in one shot.

wonder on this time of year and all our clients ALWAYS fall and are injured , find out they are ill with some serious illness or they pass away. wonder that with those clients and missing those who have passed it is truly depressing.

wonder that I am NOT putting up a tree or decorating at all this year . I will be in a tent on a beach collecting sea shells and maybe lucky enough to catch a fish for Christmas dinner . wonder that I will have blue string of lights on outside of my tent so ..wonder if that counts as holiday decorating?

I wonder that my youngest will be 18 Monday and we will go together later in month she for a piercing and me for my very first tattoo in honor of my best friend who is in heaven now. a promise we made as kids.

Wonder on a new year and praying wishing hoping can sell and move outta here.
wonder on prayers and hugs to EVERYONE...readers lurkers and posters. I love my family here.
PEACE
BMW

((((BMW)))) Love, Barbo]

I wonder that I'm too tired and content right now to wonder much...

I wonder if that's cuz I came home from work... changed into my jammies... checked my email and discovered my neighbour had invited me upstairs for dinner!

Marshmallow-friend, I wonder what you will choose for a tattooo??? and I hope that you put it somewhere that you can look at it (well, that's my wish if ever I would have a tattoo... so, um , you can put yours wherever you know it will give the greatest sense of contentment)...

love all my family here....

I wonder if I can give a shout-out to Lonely1 and Lara and a hug to them and everyone

wonder that I DID IT I have all my posties in holiday cards all stamped and ready for mail tomorrow.
wonder that my b.f. and I made deal when we was kids if I went first she gets a sunflower and Wonder well since I am still here I get a butterfly...which is so fitting cus I kept the secret wonder ,like the Indian saying ..have a secret tell a butterfly ... so wonder that I am have a butterfly or 2 of them one on inside of my right heel wonder the other on outside of left calf...so when i cross my feet /legs the butterflies will be together.lols.

wonder I am just holding on going through the motions waiting for a change... but as I said in one of my posties..perhaps it is I that need to change

wonder that there is a better place to be then where I am right now.. wonder that I know there is cus I was there before ..wonder I just dont know how I got away from there.. I want to be there again .


wonder on hugs to the room the Readers and those on the side lines...i know most arent in a better place then me THEY ARE JUST LIKE ME ...even if it feels like i am alone or the only one ... I am not. I wish i could change that ..for everyone. I can only hope and pray and I am doing that.
PEACE
BMW

I wonder how hard this holiday will be for so many people who miss loved ones...

I wonder how long before those memories will bring us joy instead of pain..

I wonder that my baby sister made me smile about it snowing in Wisconsin...be careful what you wish for Alffe!

I wonder how much I am looking forward to being at our oldest daughters for Christmas.....everyone coming.

I wonder if I can leave hugs for our forum family...

I wonder whether all who need to be here will chance the exposure to post..

I wonder whether people the world wide will come together in peace, no guns..

I wonder whether those butterflies on BMW, my friend, will bring great joy...

I wonder at the great discovery BMW achieved in reaching peace work is finished in one spot so doors and windows may be opened to BMW light in other places....

I wonder at the JOY perspective brings when at Christmastime, for those who celebrate, one may look at three letters and realize, Jesu first, Others second, Yourself third.... a perspective which fosters outreach such as this..

I wonder at families travelling at this time of year and pray safety will preserve them...

I wonder at having shared the afternoon decorating sugar cookies with 5 year old Micahla who was thrilled to be "all grown up" and reaching the counter to spoon frosting carefully in quilty designs which inspire smiles.....

I wonder whether we may approach life as childres, wandering through life with eyes wide open to the wonders all around......

Ahhhhhhh......... Hugs for Alffe and everyone else!