Last evening, after much acting out,
attempting to manipulate and not meeting success,
failing to submit fully to the psych helps provided,
both recently and over years in times past,
our youngest son, a father himself,
attempted to leave this life,
perhaps in this,
the effort to manipulate,
he managed to succeed well and truly,
for it earned him close and careful watchcare
in the arms of the military hospital which is staffed
fully for treating those who, having tasted time in theatre
have returned home damaged of the soul,
incapable of managing personal affairs well at all,
seeming not to care one whit for the wife and child who
have lent their hearts to our child for safekeeping,
thus, in this time, perhaps he will have and receive
deep and enduring care for his psyche
heal even just his spirit,
if not of his family whom he has placed in emotional harms way,
then of the self, the blessed self which
being brought into this world
and blessed
was and remains so fully capable
to be and deliver blessings to others, that is,
should he be willing
not to live just
FOR SELF
but
for
others,
those whom he pledged endearing love,
the one who bears his visage as a toddler
the lady who, being home and hearth for him and his son,
deserves more than brokenness unhealed.

Pray with me for the family of my child
for my child
for his wife
for my grandson
that in this and through this
blessings may pour forth,
my vision is blurred by the tears which fill my eyes
and my heart feels so heavy
not knowing what to do
but
pray
and yield this up to the Lord
for our son is receiving
care both medical
and
of the psyche
as I hope
may bring healing and joy.

Amen?