Guys,



Everything is still the same. Pretty much exactly how it was since I posted this. I tried talking to my mom but I just was crying so hard that I physically can't speak. It's hard to explain, but I can't talk cause of all the crying.




And My anxiety is getting worse because school is starting in a week. I'm so scared still. scared of everything.

Sam,

I am really sorry to hear you are still experiencing so much emotional turmoil. Perhaps now is the time to try to calm your mind with Meditative Practices. Here:

http://www.how-to-meditate.org/breat...ditations.htm/

Is my teacher's (Geshe Kelsang Gyatso) Breathing Meditation instruction page. It is a Secular practice, suitable for everyone, not just Buddhists.

The aim is to empty and calm your mind by simply concentrating on the sensation of the breath entering and leaving your body. While it is simple to start it takes practice, but the results can be very powerful.

It would also be a constructive exercise for you to practice when you are in your room. Just make sure you turn off all distractions.

If you try it for 10-15 minutes a few times a day for a few days you may calm down enough to be able to talk to your Mum.

Dave.

Hi Sam,

I understand the difficulty with crying so much you cannot speak.
However, please understand you will not cry forever. At some point, once emotions are released, you will reach a point where you can talk.

What happens when if/when you cry hard in front of your mother?
Does she wait for you to eventually stop crying?
She must wonder what's beneath the crying?

Crying is perfectly acceptable behavior.
Many cultures cry more freely and more often than we do in our own culture.
Somewhere, we have gotten the message that crying, and crying hard, is not okay. It's more than okay! It's a strong release of emotions and is very healthy behavior.

There was a suggestion earlier in the thread, asking you if you might be able to write out your feelings and concerns and give them to your parents in writing. Someone suggested you simply print your first post and give it to your parents. Great suggestions!

Your anxiety is picking up with the upcoming return to school.
I was hoping you might be able to communicate with your parents before school starts, so you might have some additional advocacy/assistance from the school administration, teachers, programs, etc.

I hope you will find a way to communicate, to let your parents know your concerns and needs. You deserve assistance. Please accept assistance, Sam.

We are here for you, Sam.
Please tell us how we may best help you.
We care and we want to help you, Sam.


DejaVu

Hoping you're ok Sam. As mentioned, writing down your feelings & handing your note to a trusted person is a good idea in your situation...

I hope things get easier for you...

Peace out.

Andy.

How you doing Sam?

Remember too, if you're feeling low at any point, you can always come on here & get things off your chest. There will always be someone around who can be a bit of 'online' support...

Take things one day at a time...

Hope you're feeling a little better...

Andy....

as Andy says
don't stop coming
we all have your back
we DO understand
i HEAR you loud and clear
i will say as a parent
are you absolutely certain
you cannot sit family down
and Talk
i mentioned how imperative
it is NOT to shut down
NEVER shut down
as you have a place to come
and please don't stop sharing
we will ALWAYS be here
and take comfort we care
and yes love
you
we will love you till you love yourself
you are an amazing young person
love
me

Hi Sam,

You doing okay out there? I am late to the conversation but you have been in my thoughts and my heart. You are brave and courageous and I just know you are going to find a way that works for you to share with your family how much you are suffering right now. There are so many excellent suggestions here that I can't possibly add another. But I do have an interesting TEDtalk video to post about a game designer with PCS and suicidal feelings and how she overcame it. There is hope. Please take care of yourself and know that you are Loved.

www.ted.com/talks/jane_mcgonigal_the_game_that_can_give_you_10_extra _years_of_life?language=en

PS - I am wondering if you have a source of spiritual support? One of the things that got me through my darkest times with pain and illness was praying and allowing myself to feel God's presence in my life. Sometimes when we are buried in fear and despair we tend to forget someone is always there for us...

Sending healing love,

Hi Sam

One of the hardest things to do in life is tell someone close to you and are emotional attached, is your inner thoughts and feelings.

Your own emotions become overwhelming causing you to pause, hesitate and literally freeze making it impossible to talk about your issues.

Others have already said write your feelings down on Paper. Two great reasons for this
1. If its on paper its no longer in your head.
2. In time if you re-read it you can measure your progression with life.

If you do write down your thoughts, distribute your notes in a way that grabs peoples attention. Leave a note in mums handbag on. dads car seat .... in the fridge., the oven, on the kettlle...anywhere it will be picked up.

That moment will stop the reader in their tracks..you then have captive audience...so use this moment wisely...describe your feelings, express your fears, reach out for the offer of help and support...

Loved ones don't mean to walk aimlessly past your life ...acting uninterested or oblivious to your plight.......they are just unfamiliar with the concept that their kin wouldn,t
just ask for help.

Family life is wonder full, but we often take are eye off, what stares us in the face...a gentle subtle prompt is often required to refouccus our connection, and if that does not happen....not everyone can read the cues.


I wish you the best....
TAKE TIME TO TALK.......