You are so on point
And I'm certain you get I understand that
It is the things I have no control over
And watch over and over and over again
Everything now revolves around Eva
Hoping she doesn't miss anything
I can only do what "I" can
The support is the comfort
Having to find a place to shove all I cannot control
It would be better having to truly letting go and letting God
Thank you for the positive you bring to me
Reminding me things I already know
Thank you for the support
Be well
Love
Me

Got her off to school
 

We have done all we could
Today will be a test how things will work
With Corissa starting work
It is part time but a start
Where is the mother
Where is the mother
She is just so comfortable
The way things are
Never would have I ever thought it would be like it is
Me

I hope her job works out well for her :hug:

My poet
 

Baby sister and my eldest
What an awesome thing
to see siblings
want to talk to each other
To want to be in each others company
Even with ALL the drama
She has come such a long way
She has endured as the eldest
Not an easy position in the order of things
Yet she took all that has come her way and knows her purpose
in the end
A beautiful relationship they have
My babies
All individual people who are my liniage
I love them so much
So much
I wish them happiness
Me

The entire summer
 

Nobody picked her up for the weekend
the whole summer long
They had their summer
We tried
I tried my best to give her a summer
We weren't able to make it as often as we did like in the latter summers
I have declined
That is the reason why
There isn't anything important on their schedule
And Eva is nowhere a thought
This from my child
It makes me so angry
So angry
Me

Rehab once again
 

Mom is entering a rehab facility
I am hopeful
I do worry it is not a long term program
A month then a halfway house to help her acclimate to not picking up and prioritizing what to do with life on life terms
Hope and a prayer
Me

She leave for the program
 

Tomorrow my child
Will enter rehab once again
All prayers for her
My grandchild
For a new beginning
One day at a time
Having to accept life on life terms
Will be difficult
But achievable
In Jesus name
Amen

Eva,

I hope that your mom is in a good program and they won't release her until she is ready. I hope they will involve you in the process.

I'm so glad that your daughter is back in rehab. I think guarded optimism is appropriate. I hope that she is ready for change, they are able to reach her in some way this time, and she takes advantage of some of the mental health care they will no doubt offer her to increase her odds of long term success.

I hope that she succeeds and is able to raise her daughter one day soon, but in the meantime, I'm glad that you are there to take care of her and let her know she is loved.

All four generations of women in your family are in my prayers today :hug:

Any prayers
In numbers stronger
Thank you in advance
Unfortunately not even 24 hours
She is out
Mom to Eva my grandchild
I pray she understands
That a meeting every single day is her medicine
She has been to so many facilities to even begin
This has been since her sister was born
However knowing my child and her behavior
It will never happen when fighting it
I know there are many professionals
Who do NOT know what they are talking about
Coming from someone who always needed to
find a way to release many of the difficulties I was handed
A young mother with a husband who lost sight of his children
Held monies from the
As in the divorce I asked for zero alimony
But to take care of our three babies
He was working a job that paid well
The GM Automobile industry
Skipped states over the river in our back yard
From NJ to NY
And child support never enforced either by the child support department or General Motors ordered to inform the child support dept and guess what evaded his fatherly duties
And added financial burden like you have no idea
Nobody can tell this mother who chose to raise her babies
As there were plenty who wanted to take care of my babies and me
I could write a series of books the experiences I have how through since very young
It has made me a strong person
Who I am today have so many other factors that help mould me into this very thrilled and blessed on so many levels sobriety gave me that
Point
I took life very seriously
Since the age of five
And to have to find a professionals to take situational genetic environmental addiction is much for one young mom to go through
I have my grandchild since infancy
She has been in a position where a long term facility taken seriously could have benefited
As I became disable as the age of 49
And get much help from my eighteen year old savior
any help she has to offer is help where ever need be
They have a very close bond
Mommy left the program
Out
Not even twenty four hours
Sad
Very sad

I'm so sorry Eva :hug::hug::hug:

I can only hope that she keeps trying and one day it will stick.

I can't imagine what your granddaughter really thinks or feels about her mother and the situation you all find yourselves in. It must be very confusing and painful for her. Has she ever been to a therapist to help deal with her feelings? These feelings will follow her into adulthood.

You have no doubt experienced more of your share of pain and suffering during your lifetime. I know you can never truly let go because of the damage that has been done, but please try your best to live in the present and look towards the future more. I know that your life now, and your prospects for the future, aren't ideal either, but it is better than living in all the pain all the time. It must be so overwhelming… please don't let it consume you :hug::hug::hug:

You deserve to have a life of your own and to pursue some happiness :hug::hug::hug: