((((BJ))))
it is NOT failure to admit you need help...it is strength!!

I know that they recently changed your lithium dose and am so wondering if maybe that could also have played a part in what you are suffering...I know that even subtle changes in meds can sometimes have very dramatic effects.

I pray that you will have good rest and recovery in the hospital BJ and I hope that they let you stay till you feel able to cope.

we love you BJ

Cheri

((((((BJ)))))),



I'm glad you've gotten yourself into a safe place. That's not a failure; that's smart.

Let us know when you get back, we've got a planned for you

BIG HUGS (and love).

Barb

bj dear heart, you are doing the right thing. getting the help you need. sometimes it is best to let go and let somebody else take charge. your pdoc is doing what is best for you.

sending you lots of choccy, hugs and love.

Dear Girlie,
Just thinking of you tonight...jsut got home.
Thank you for the hug delivered by alffe....it was a great hug!
sending good thoughts your way for a safe return home when you are ready.
I agree...changes in your bipolar meds can definately affect your whole being...
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

hang on tight...it is hard...but it will get better...the cycle is tough, but it IS what it IS, a CYCLE.

Ride over the hump and you'll be back again readying for the next ride...

I know, none sense from Mr. Moi...LOL

how's bout just (((HUGS)))

thinking of you, BJ ......

I hope things are going better for you.

This is the first chance I've been able to get to the computer. My pdoc has me really knocked out and I've been sleeping a lot, which I needed. My electrolytes are all out of whack which is compounding everything. It's no surprise that I'm suffering from extreme exhaustion and dehydration. I've been on IV fluids and ABs for the dehydration and mosquito bites. I didn't even realize it but I was bit over 100 times. And with West Nile in the area they're being cautious.

I don't know how long I'm going to be here. First I have to recover from the physical part and then we can work on what's going inside of my head. I'm still suicidal and can't be left alone, and I know that. But I did say something today at counseling which totally shocked me.

But right now I'm extremely tired but I wanted to pop on here and thank each and every one of you for getting me through this. Even though I didn't have the energy to reply, I took each word to heart and I think I might have done "it" long before. I know the hardes t part is to come, finding out what's going on inside. But knowing that there are people pulling for me makes me feel not so alone.

My mind and body may be burnt but not my heart. I did what I could but I couldn't control it. And I hope you don't feel any less of me for that.

I'm so tired in body and spirit. I love you each and every one of you and you're all very special to me and I'll always hold a special place for you in my heart.

Hi BJ,

I'm so glad you were able to come by and let us know how you are doing now. You've been on my mind.

I leave tomorrow for holidays for 2 weeks so I probably won't be around on here and I was grateful to see you had posted today.

My goodness you've been through the wringer! Over 100 bites - yikes!! I'm glad you are getting some much needed sleep now.

No way do I feel any less of you ... it is just the opposite. I admire you for recognizing you really needed to seek help and that you followed through on doing it. It is also good to hear that you know you can't be alone now so that you can stay safe. I hope you have some good counselors so you can feel it is OK to talk to them about what you are feeling and thinking.

Keep up the good work in taking care of yourself. I truly think your mom is feeling proud of you for doing just that.

what a joy to log on and find find a post from you bj. you have been in everyone's thoughts and prayers.

i am so glad they found out about the electrolytes. even just low magnessiom can cause depression.

take care bj. thank you so much for checking in.

Oh dear BJ...It's so reassuring to hear from you...makes this old heart beat a little faster just knowing that you are safe and getting the help you need.

Going in for help was the right thing to do and it's going to be ok. We are always going to be here for you.