I admire you too (((BJ))). And thank you so much for stopping in to keep us up to date. I've read up on ECT and the therapy Alffe links above. Maybe you could talk to your doctors about the other therapy.

Lots of love and prayers for you sweetie.

((BJ))

It sounds so horrible for you, but it also looks like the final stretch for you. I'm hoping it's considered normal with this type of treatment. Most treatments are uncomfortable until real healing begins, so I'm hoping this is true for you too.

Stay open and connected to your docs during this time. We're all here rooting for you.

Just popping on for a second to share some good news.My insurance company approved the VNS. I'm sorry I didn't realize Bizi posted about it. When my pdoc told me two weeks ago I'd have to have maintenance ects I said no way am i having anymore once I get out. I had to put this in notepad and read it over and over because Im even having a hard time putting a sentence together. I'm hoping all these symtpoms go away.My memory is getting worse and worse with each one. After I got the news I instinctively picked up the phone to call my mom and realized I forgot the number and also that she's not here anymore.

So now it's 2 more and counting, one on Monday and one Wednesday. then Thursday they're taking me to the OR to put it in. It sounds scarey because they have to put it in my chest and run wires to my neck. And there's a lot of side effects especially with voice but this is my only hope. If I could only take anti-ds it would have been so much easier. She said it will constantly zap me but I won't know it's happening.

I'm not sure when I'll be able to get back on here because it's going to be a rough week with testing and treatments. Once they get it adjusted right my pdoc said I could go home. But there's a lot I have to agree to before that happens. But I don't want to go where I was. You have no idea how close I was.

today Im getting out for 2 hours. I've lost 18 pounds since I had my gall bladder out. My friend said I could go anywhere I wanted. So I said Friendlys for a nice big banana split.

{{{Alffe}}} even though I'll be in lala land on Thursday, just know that I'll be thinking of you. And I really hope you and Doody have a great time galvanting around.

Thanks to each and every one of you for sticking by me through this.

Hi BJ,

You've been on my mind and I was glad to see you were able to get back on here again.

I saw what bizi had posted about the VNS and I thought it looked interesting. It sounds great that you have approval for it from your insurance company! I agree that it seems like a better option than maintenance ECT!

How wonderful that you have some time away today and that you'll be with a friend. 'Friendlys' sounds like a good place to go! I hope you enjoy everything about getting out, being with a friend, and having a banana split.

You are doing great, you really are, and the end is in sight. I wish you well with the rest of this week.

My caring thoughts are with you dear (((((BJ)))))

Dear BJ,
Enjoy that big banana split today! Sounds good.

I'm also glad to hear you're having some time away from there today even if it's just for a couple of hours. You may not be feeling that way yet, but your post actually 'sounds' quite positive although I'm really sorry you're having such awful memory problems. That should settle down again soon hopefully. I wish you all the best for the VNS. You sure have a lot going on right now.

Hugs for you dear Girlie.
((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))
bizi

You are in the middle of a very rough week BJ and I just wanted to remind you that we're thinking about you.

Yes, we are thinking of you. It is a big week indeed. I hope you're alright there.

I hope things are going OK for you, BJ. Hang in there!