Dear Bamboo,
Do you have anyone you can ask to stay with you for a few days? Maybe you need some company. That has worked for me.

Think about what has worked for you in the past when you needed to feel better. A walk? Some sunshine? Music? I used to go to my friend's house who had a dog and I would spend half the day walking, petting, and talking to the dog.
Even going to a movie works sometimes. For two instense hours your mind is filled with something else.

You really can go to the hospital. They build hospitals and put staff in there to help us. You would be in good hands.

Mari