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Was that REALLY Sue???? God, I missed you when you left and never posted again. Glad to see you are still up and about. Or are you still in the basement????

Hugs.

I'm still looking for "When there are no words"...but while looking I've found some treasures....(((Sue)))

Now if only we had word of our dear Lara.

ACCIDENT=dictionary deffinition=

'any unpleasant or unfortunate occurrence that causes injury, loss, suffering, or death; some untoward occurrence aside from the usual course of events. An event that takes place without one's foresight or expectation; an undesigned, sudden, and unexpected event'.

Alffe..........a tragic accident it was.


As with all accidents if the ingriedients are at hand, the chances of an accident occurring multiply.

In my own experience, frustration, pain at the time, the inabilllity to communicate my inner desperation and remove the dark cloud hovering over my life, and addmittably an awful amount of alcohol, lead to my trajic accident. It was not until after the event did i notice the impact on others.

despair is a lonely place, sadly it has a habbit of holding on to your tongue, so that communicating its vile presence seems impossible.


David

I want desperately to believe it was an accident.
Twink I hope you don't mind, but what you wrote me
I would like to share here. "I can't help but feel your father wishes he could come back and hold you and apologize over and over. I'm sure he had no idea how devastating his action would be to his sweet daughter Nikki. "

I believe that with all that I am. The only thing I am clinging to is I
KNOW he couldn't have known how deeply this would hurt. It is trying
to destroy me. I know too, that is the very last thing he would wish
for me. I know how greatly he loved me.. and what is so ironic in a
twisted sort of way, is he was the one who always protected me..
the one I would run to when I was hurting. And yet, here I am falling
apart due to a choice he made. Lord but I don't think I can survive this!

Thank you David..I find comfort in your post....some would find it suprising that someone this far "out" would still need comforting but it is, what it is,
and in my case, I often "ache".

You can survive this dear lady...he didn't know, he didn't think!
His choice was a bad one, an understandable one I guess due to his terminal illnes but I know that you would have given anything to have kept him from doing this. I am so sorry.

(((Alffe)))...I am sorry you had to walk that journey
Thank you for being a survivor
Thank you for being the caring person that you are and helping
others to survive
Thank you for including those of us on the other end of the face
of suicide
Thank you for helping us to talk about it
Thank you for letting us know that we matter, for reminding us
Thank you for sharing Michael with us...because you love him I do

(((DMACK)))...Thank you for sharing your journey...there are so many faces
to suicide...

I thank you for saying his name......Michael.

I'm so thankful for this forum family...I get much more than I could ever give.

Hugs for the room

When there are no words....I bump!

bumping up a really old thread because....and January is almost behind me.

Hugs for the room.